Well, shit.

Around two months ago, I placed an order with CanadianForger for some heroin. I was battling an opiate addiction at that time, and it was winning. I've been clean for a while now, and I shot him an email asking where my pack was. He informed me that if it had taken that long, I qualified for a free reship. I encrypted my address and sent it to him, and my drugs are supposedly in the mail. I'm also out of needles. What should I do?

Edit: Thanks for the advice. I may just stash it away in a dark hole, if it even makes it across the border.

Edit2: nevermind, fuck it. I'm flushing the H and buying some hash or something.

Also, whichever mod flaired my post: thanks.


Comments


[137 Points] william_shartner:

Just flush it, man. There's no need to let some heroin that you'd probably written off as a loss break your sober streak.

When the package arrives, think of all the reasons why you quit in the first place, remember how you felt when you were losing to your opiate addiction, and then flush. The. Fucking. Drugs.


[58 Points] Rolltripdance:

Sell it and get weed or something new. A fancy ass dinner paid for by kicking heroin would be pretty sweet.


[18 Points] None:

3 Years SOBER from any alcohol. It was my demon. Drugs I can handle in moderation, but 1 beer meant 12 and a pint of vodka. If you had to ask, I also think you already know the right answer.


[12 Points] The_Grid_Is_Up:

MXE Grid says flush it. It's for the best.


[12 Points] None:

Don't let the darknet pull you back into something you don't desire. I understand you didn't want to waste money, though. Sell it or flush it.


[10 Points] None:

as somebody whos been clean for 3 months and had to tell a doctor not to give me vicodin the other day after a surgery...flush that shit.

its really, really hard and youre going to wish you kept it or got it just for that one time, stored in a cabinet so one rainy day you could relive your glory days...i can tell you, today, i wasnt constipated, i wasnt craving,i wasnt clamy, sweaty, hot chills with restless leg syndrom and full of anxiety. instead, i was calm and happy and enjoyed my day without any fake euphoria. i went out to dinner, noone was pissed off at me cause i was high and nodding off again, i had a decent amount of money in my wallet and wasnt spiraling into something i couldnt control.

but if i did take the vicodin, i would have taken it all in two days, figured out somehow to get 200 bucks, buy a bunch of opiates off the internet, relapsed and had to go through a shitty withdrawal again cause no one can afford their habit once they pass that point. lets say i can run with it for a month, two months, hell even six months. then i withdrawal for a week, maybe its christmas. im pissing out my ass, my brain is rewiring itself, im itchy, sweaty, cold and feel like a piece of garbage that i did this to myself again. its easy to remember that great feeling of the warm jacuzzi euphoria, its hard to remember that shit feeling of feeling like shit.

tl;dr. flush that shit.

Edit: just to clarify, I'm not some NA preacher. I still drink a lot and take drugs sometimes but never the milk of the poppy. I've lived in countries where oxys, morphine, diacetylmorphine(heroin), Vicodin, tramadol were over the counter. My last endeavor was a opium overdose in Laos, kicked and decided I was banging my head against the wall...over and over and over again. After awhile, you realize the bad sucks worse than the good.


[12 Points] None:

Flush it as soon as you get it.


[5 Points] None:

send me the H bro I will be your sponsor and help you get clean.


[6 Points] None:

Flush that shit man, don't relapse. Just look up to a better life without the H.


[5 Points] None:

If you truly in your heart want to be clean of opiates and know it was causing you more pain than good. FLUSH.


[5 Points] swihoffmansbabby:

Listen to everyone--don't even just stash it... give it away if you have using friends, sell it for other drugs that won't break your streak (!).


[3 Points] JburnaDNM:

Flush it. Dont sell it for weed because the longer it takes to sell it the longer it will be on your mind and in your posession. Have someone else grab the package and flush it. I have a horrible opiate addiction but currently on a clean streak due to my lack of employment.


[3 Points] meantocows:

Seems pretty obvious that you should throw it out. 2 months of sobriety is not nearly enough to start chipping. I guarantee you will end up strung out again.


[3 Points] LoudRooster:

I really love this thread. Everyone here is being sincere and giving sound advice. I feel like reddit dnms should be like this most of the time. Flush that H, you don't want to go through withdraw symptoms again.


[3 Points] Lucid_Enemy:

having been an addict for the last 3 years and not having a stable hookup who just drew his last oxy that he knows in existance right now... I can tell you its not worth it im litterly going to cry when I put this in my vein because I know my future I know what tommorw or what the next 2 hours will look like.. calling everyone asking everyone stooping to newer shittier lows just to find more.... youve been there... any opi addict knows this... do you want that? im thinking no If i were you either sell that shit (quickly) hell fire sale that shit be like give me what ever you feel like giving me or flush it. you arranged this reship not cause you made the choice to use again you probably had that idea in the back of your mind but when you did it you realized what you just did... but you also used your logic no ones just gonna let themselfs get ripped off so dont stress why you chose the reship think about what your gonna do when you get it.. DONT buy rigs hell dont even make a tooter just line up a buy with someone and explain your reasons it might even make them attempt to quit


[3 Points] GrandWizardsLair:

ITGWRC we sent you a Withdrawal Kit for your last kick. If Edit 2 is correct we won't be sending you another one in the near future. And if you slip up, remember that getting clean will never be easier than it is Right Now. The longer you stay on the ride the tougher it will be to get off.

Whatever happens best of luck. If you're ever tempted to use again, click your heels together and mutter under your breath "There's no place like the Grand Wizard's Lair" three times. When you're done the craving will be gone. Or a bunch of people will be pointing at you and laughing, which will take your mind off it anyway.


[2 Points] abs1337:

Lots of good advice here, I'd only add this - don't give it to others, you may just be feeding another's addiction. Flush it and good luck!


[2 Points] SaintZenius:

I agree with the previous advice. If you feel the desire to somehow get high (we all know it) try to achieve it another way. Maybe order some real good weed/hash or the psychedelic of you choice. But no fucking opiates/benzos. You would most likely regret it.


[1 Points] fiddyvirgins:

I battled an opiate addiction as well.

Fwd me the gear.


[1 Points] emotionalpainkiller:

However you find it easiest to not do the drugs when they come, do that. Whether that be having it already sold to a friend, or you told your SO/momma, or are just ready to flush it. Not worth it man.


[1 Points] None:

2 months clean from heroin, and 4 days off suboxone (and doing fine). Fuck, that temptation of having it right in your hands.....good luck.


[1 Points] None:

God bless you, I hope you find light within your journey of becoming sober. Just remember, you've gone this far now.. Why demolish that and your life at the same time ?


[1 Points] thascarecro:

As a former addict myself i can tell you that if you still are asking for your pack then you will do it. A month after i was clean i had a buddy come by to do some H with me. I looked at it and said "nah man i cant". It was one of the hardest things i've ever had to do but i never invited him over. If he had called i wouldve told him no on the phone. Sounds like you were forced to be "clean" then you still asked for the pack. I'm guessing if you are having a bad day and it shows up you are gonna do it.

I'm 18 months clean off of H and oxy and i still get cravings every day. I hope you can fight the urge and i also hope you have something worth staying clean for. The right thing to do wouldve been to tell him to cancel the reship. Good luck.


[1 Points] BakedPastaParty:

Hey man, your post is a little old so I'm not sure if this will have an effect or not. Either way, I know exactly where youre coming from man. I, too, am an opiate user at war with an addiction; however the way I choose to wrestle with my use is periods of abstaining vs. periods of use. It works for me, but its not easy, and I am often faced with scenarios very similar to this one; been going strong for a while and then a dope opportunity presents itself and its hard to turn down.

Turn it down, man. If you really are doing this for yourself, and you've made it this far, it's not worth it. If you are struggling with the financial aspect of it, just consider allllllll that money you've thrown away up your nose or in your arm(im not sure how you use. i only snort) and think of this as a better alternative. You already threw the money away on this dope to be consumed. The only difference is you didnt consume it, and it didnt get a chance to harm you the way opiates do. That money went to paying into your well-being. When you put a positive spin on everything to reassure that confidence within yourself to stay away is when you can be genuinely happy without purposely flooding your brain with dopamine.

I believe that when the time comes you will do the right thing. Good luck with everything in the future, and if for whatever you reason you need anything, you can reach out to me any time you like


[1 Points] slimjim321:

im confused. many orders are not tracked/signed, so whats stopping someone from lying and getting a free reship anyway?


[-1 Points] young_k:

sounds like you should buy some rigs.


[-1 Points] Up-The-Butt_Jesus:

Where the H should go


[-5 Points] None:

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