Which drug is right for me?

I just turned 19 and I have wandered way too far past the point of no return. Life is meaningless to me. I will never be happy. The only thing I have left to try is heroin, even though it will probably only be temporary. Nothing to lose so whatever. Which opiate do you recommend, h or fent or something else? I am pretty small in size for my age and I don't want to overdose (at least not my first time using it) so where do you guys recommend I find information on using it safely? Also if there is a seller you recommend please share.


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[44 Points] apexpred9:

I recommend you go see a licensed therapist and maybe even stay away from drugs.


[27 Points] lmakeltraln:

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What is this?


[15 Points] aSchizophrenicCat:

Get your head straight bro.


[10 Points] Kofeb:

Did you ask r/opiates?

If anything smoke pot do NOT do opiates. Honestly I know you're not gonna want to hear this but it's not a road anyone is thankful that they went down.


[5 Points] fabel42o:

Would heavily recommend not trying to get your hands on heroin, been there and in your exact same mindspace\situation, and it doesn't do anything more than make you feel good for a while then your out of money and fiending like a mofo for the momentarily physical and mental relief doing some h brings. Maybe take some acid or some molly or both and just live and experience what it's like to truly be alive and embrace fun, or just become a bartard, you will be too ignorant to even acknowledge how shitty your current situation is, and you'll just sleep all day. May seem sarcastic, realistic scenarios. Drugs will ultimately crush you and make you their bitch, especially people in your state, fuck it though live and learn, do what you will. Good luck.


[3 Points] psychejohndoe:

Maybe drugs can wait.

You sound depressed and seem to be struggling. Once you're in a better mindset, maybe then try some drugs.

Addiction isn't fun.


[3 Points] None:

I have always been a poly drug user, dabbling in everything that I could get my hands on, but never becoming addicted to any one substance. Until the DNMs. Since being able to purchase pretty much anything I want, I have isolated the drugs that I can use recreationally, and the one drug that I use as a tool: methamphetamine. I use meth in daily measured amounts, and have become disciplined enough in my ROA that I only use it once per day, orally. Unfortunately, this chronic use of meth has ruined me for the recreational aspects of meth that I used to enjoy occasionally, and for all stimulants for that matter. Consequently, I, like you, am continually searching for a new substance to use as a weekend escape from the grind of meth-focused graduate studies. I occasionally procure a bag of heroin for this purpose, but lately I've had urges to revisit the psychedelic phase that I went through when I was around your age.

I recently discovered ketamine, which to me seems like a substance halfway between a tranquilizer and a psychedelic (I realize that ketamine was devised as a human and animal anesthetic initially and is still the go-to anesthetic in veterinary settings). The advantages of the drug for me at this point are its low chance for addiction, relatively short duration, and relatively low cost, when compared to cocaine, for example. My recent experimentation with the drug led me to the following conclusion: it can be used in the "weekend warrior" sense and satisfy my desires for drugs that can no longer satisfy my desire for recreational stimulants, such as cocaine. I understand that in order for me to enjoy cocaine and methamphetamine recreationally as I once did, will involve a lengthy period of abstinence, which my career as a graduate student will not currently permit.

In conclusion, you cannot expect drugs to make you happy or plug a hole in your life. They can do this temporarily, but the law of diminishing returns dictates that they will achieve this effect less and less, and turn into a futile avenue of escape from daily problems. In your case, I would recommend steering away from opiates and explore some psychedelics. I found myself experiencing the same malaise that you describe when I was your age, and I discovered that a trip on magic mushrooms every couple of weeks was the cure. From what I have learned about DMT, if I would have been able to use that substance when I was in late adolescence, I may have been able to stave off some bipolar symptoms that were apparent but didn't become problematic until I was much older.

My advice would be to research anything that you plan to put in your body, and if you're truly depressed, seek professional help. There are drugs in the pharmaceutical realm that have had miraculous success with depression and other mental problems.

TLDR: don't expect drugs to offer a permanent life fix.


[3 Points] rikkeemartina:

Stay away from opiates at all costs. For you, I recommend 2 grams of mushrooms at home with no interruptions or in nature in the woods. /r/shrooms has good advice, read trip reports at shroomery and erowid. The duration is short enough that it won't interfere to much with your schedule and it won't exhaust you and you will come out of it with insights and a renewed zest for life. Psilocybin is quite healthy for the brain. Afterwards, the key is to immediately make habits that take you to the next level, browse /r/getmotivated and /r/theredpill

Get mushrooms.


[2 Points] RIP_Meth_9000:

Dude....get some meth...its the best!!!!!!!


[1 Points] DiaperDankFrank11:

You will come out of this better than ever. This too shall pass. Life is what you make it. If you make it meaningless and without happiness it will be. Just hang in there and you will be happy youre alive.


[1 Points] connect4kmeth:

Dude some meth and some special k should get your ass back on track dog... just dont shoot it yet..


[1 Points] samwhiskey:

You should at least eat right and hydrate properly before you make any decisions like this.


[1 Points] dirkdigglerxxx:

Try Lsd. Eat 500ug. It will be better then opiates and will show you the insight on life


[1 Points] None:

I recommend buying ketamine and shooting it up your peepee hole


[1 Points] None:

If you have your mind set on opiates , than maybe try oxy first not H. Your not gonna find anyone who's gonna tell you trying dope is good idea. You would be hard pressed to find a person who's life got better after trying opiates. LSD and mushrooms are great for exploring your mind . Molly can help u fill uplifted an happy if your feeling down. I would try other things before H could really affect the outcome of the rest of your life , not sound corny . Cheers :)


[1 Points] UncleRays:

OP please only do H and no fent. also dont do any without reading erowid first


[1 Points] DeliChopz:

DMT


[1 Points] CapitalHills:

If you go trouble, smoke dmt. It makes you face your problem and beat it. Or LSD


[1 Points] Darknet_Retard:

Hey man I'm 19 too. Don't know what's going wrong in your life but if you want you can PM me.


[1 Points] wormscomeindroves:

I mean, heroin is pretty fucking awesome. But I literally just got off a couple year daily habit and let me tell you, it's not fucking worth it. IF you do opiates, please, don't make it a daily habit. It's a sad, sad game.