So I've been extremely interested in DMT for a few years now. Back when Sheep was up I ordered a really small amount of it from a vendor I can't recall the name of, and me and my homie loaded it up between 2 layers of sour in a bowl. Long story short we passed it back and forth twice and after we each took a second hit he handed it to me and my head started vibrating kinda and I was looking straight forward and the best way I can explain it is I felt like I was on a rollercoaster right when everybody counting down got to 1. I felt like I was about to take off right through the wall. All I said was "Nah" and he looked at it and decided not to either. Recently I told another friend about it and every day since he calls me telling me he has cash he's ready to put up. I'm definitely thinking about going through with it but I just wanted to ask you guys what the breakthrough is like first. Did any of you guys think it was TOO intense? There may be a better place to post this but to be honest I don't care because I like you guys the best and I trust more of your opinions than I should.
I went over to my friend's house to watch wes anderson films. He mentions he has some DMT. We decide to give it a go. I had read about breakthroughs and was going through a rough time emotionally so I was super excited to try it.
My friend boils up a beverage containing the MOAI. I drink it. Tastes like death. For a while my body and conscious just felt heavier and heavier. Then I ate the capsule containing the DMT. An hour passes and I feel heavier, but still not tripping. My friend hands me the bong with some more DMT in it and I rip it. My first thought was to set the bong down as quickly as possible because I could feel myself withdrawing. Quickly.
I lay there for a moment (moaning I think). I was starting to feel euphoric. Then the nausea hit. My friend had told me before I drank the beverage not to fight the urge to vomit. It is inevitable and you will ruin the trip resisting the urge. So I stand up and by some miracle make it to the bathroom where I vomit so hard at one point I thought I had shit my pants. After the vomiting subsides I slump to the side of the comode and lean against the wall. This is the moment I rocketed to another dimension. Checked out. Broke on through to the other side.
It was there that I met god. Or the super celestial sentience.. or whatever it was I have bever felt so connected to anything and everything all at once. As far as visuals I was blinded by shooting colors. It was spectacular.
And so I asked god many questions. Why are we here? Why do we hurt each other? What happens when we die? What is our purpose? Why did my love leave me?
The answer was the always the same.
"Just be."
I felt as if I had tasted nirvana. I let go of any anxieties I had about past present or future. I embraced the connectivity that exists between myself and every conscience being on this earth. That when I am good to others I am good to myself. That when anyone hurts or suffers injustice we all do. That life is a fleeting temporary experience and all that matters is to be happy and put positive energy out into the world always.
And most importantly I learned that "god" (or whatever you call it because it is surely open to interpretation) is indifferent. He doesn't interfere in our lives he only observes, silently watching our human experience.. everything we will ever need to overcome anything is within us. Don't look to the sky, look into yourself. Enjoy love when it graces you with its presence, but if it leaves you do not mourn. Remember you are whole. Remember everything is within you.
My friend put on some great music and I cried the happiest of tears as I descended back to "reality".
I have not worried or angered over anything since this experience. My soul is serenaded. I am zen. I am at peace.
The come down was not bad, aside from a headache and a general feeling of weakness for a few hours. The dream i had after going to bed that night was similar but not as intense. It was like a deep meditation.
I should mention though that ever since my DMT trip I have had several extremely lucid dreams. They are emotionally overwhelming a lot of the time but I enjoy them regardless as they are usually very interesting and enlightening experiences.
If you do decide to ingest DMT via ayahuasca method do a little reading up because there are certain foods you should avoid for a day or so (certain digestive enzymes are temporarily destrojuyed and some foods are likely to upset your stomache should you eat them).
PM me if you have any questions. I am more than happy to share this experience as it significantly changed my life for the better.