Basically I got really depressed this past week.
So..... I saw a can of dusters ( which I swore to myself I'd never touch again and until now, I did)
I pretty much did 1 can in 3 days. I hate myself for it.
Has anyone had any similar experience? How fucked am I, physically/mentally?
And help would be appreciated, please no bashing.
I'm never touching that shit! I felt like I died one time.
Advice/help wanted
Depressed people self medicate with lots of different stuff. You need to look into why you are depressed, talk it out with someone and if relevant then look into medication/long term therapy.
If you don't, then it will just keep happening. Maybe with something different, but always something to try and avoid the pain. Some people get into really dangerous shit like fentanyl or heroin or religion.
Find the problems. Even if you can't fix them, being aware of it makes it a LOT easier to deal with.
I'm normally a total dick to people, but I have been where you are (different substance though) and I empathise. Good luck.