I've always been a bit weird, and at times I see items available for purchase and there's just something inside my brain that says "Even if you have no intention of using it anytime soon, buy it now, because you may not have this same opportunity in the future."I'm the same way with prescription medications. If there are any left, no mater what it is, I'll toss a desiccant pack in the bottle and stick it away for some future use. (I can't list the number of occurrences in which a few pill of ondansetron or cipro have saved the day.)
My first illicit on line purchase was for steroids. After the curtain had been pulled back and I saw the ease in which it took place, my confidence grew and I started amassing a fairly extensive steroid collection. Even after I had run a few cycles and was backing off on my use, I would get on line and buy up whatever was a good deal. All of which was just for the sake of building up a well stocked personal pharmacy.
So now I find myself browsing the market, just looking for the next thing to add to the library. There are some drugs I enjoy much more then others. I've always been partial to cannabis and benzo's. (I don't have as much of the desire to stockpile cannabis. Largely due to the fact that I think it's reasonable to assume that it will be legally nationwide within the next 5 years.) Access to the DNM's has now ensured I can have an experience with MDMA every year or 2, and a psychedelic experience every 5-10 years.
I'm what many would label as a "light weight. My preferred intoxication level for most any substance has always been on the threshold to mild (maybe sometimes medium)level. So when I drink, it'll usually just be a beer or 2. When I smoke cannabis, I'll be a puff or 2. On the very rare occasion it's something else and I'm sticking with just 1 tab or pill. This all is to say that infrequent use and a low tolerance/intoxication desire result in small amounts of substances being all I need, and able to last me great amounts of time.
The problem has now gotten back to the point thought where I finding myself browsing the markets for small amounts of substances I have no desire to use, solely so that I can have them in the collection, and so that I would have instant access to them if some ideal opportunity to experiment with them presented itself.
Please someone help unburden my soul by giving me solace in the fact that I'm not alone in these neuroses.
You are not alone!
I have an impressive collection of medicine, and psychedelics ( which I also consider medicine), some of it is around 17-20 year old. Many times has it saved my day. Doctors here don't hand out proper pain meds, even when it should be obvious that they would help for a few days, so I just take matters into my own hands. I do not abuse or use any of it for fun, but it's just nice to have when that tooth ache, or twisted knee, suddenly hits you.
I also like to have 100+ gram of mushrooms, 10-20 tabs of 3-4 'different' kinds of LSD, some cactus, 2c-b and so on, just to be on the safe side. You never know when 30 hippies is gonna come by and wanna trip with you. It has never happened yet, but I'm ready.