Heroin: A Unique Perspective

It's a well accepted fact that a heroin habit will ruin your life. I can't recall hearing a story about heroin that wasn't a total downer. Nobody enjoys heroin in moderation....right?

So is my experience some sort of statistical anomaly? Allow me:

For about 6 months now, I snort a gram of heroin on a weekly basis, over the course of 2/3 days. I love it. I no longer need to inhale a fifth of vodka to cope with my existential crisis. Pretty much all measures of my life have improved since I replaced binge drinking with casual heroin use.

My withdrawals are very light. Kratom helps. It is NOTHING compared to a 3 day booze bender.

Don't get me wrong - I've developed a full on psychological addiction. I'm always looking forward to the day my pack arrives. Days without heroin are very whatever. But my life isn't falling apart. I'm happier now. My tolerance isn't growing at an alarming rate. I'll have to stop one day and deal with my shit, but until then, it just kind of sucks that I can't tell my loved ones about a big part of my life because of the stigma.

I know that hardened heroin users are going to call me out for being naive. But does anybody else enjoy moderate, casual, responsible heroin use over a prolonged period of time? Or am I 1 month away from blowing dudes to get my fix?

TL,DR: I like heroin and it's not ruining my life. Please don't do heroin though, it's bad.


Comments


[13 Points] underdosedwtf:

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[7 Points] za4h:

Using kratom on your off days means you really aren't using off days at all. You are taking opiates every day. Kratom is just hiding the heroin withdrawals, and increasing your tolerance.


[7 Points] safjsdsafjksdfjdkfl:

this post is soooo cringey. you are 6 months in and you think you got it figured out. see ya in a couple years.

do you realize how offensive you posting this bullshit in here is to people that have lived the ups and downs (mostly down) of being an addict? you are trying to comment on something as if you have the authority to know but you are just a child


[4 Points] bobbiggs69:

I think we all felt that way at some point. I went a few years with no withdrawals and really no psychological addiction. I kept doing it because I thought I was different. Until I wasn't.

The part about heroin that gets you is that it plays to human nature. We all want to think it will never happen to us.

I hope I'm wrong and you can enjoy the magic of heroin for as long as you want and it never ruins your life.


[4 Points] throwitwaywaywayaway:

There is absolutely nothing unique about this perspective; rather, it is an inherent rationalization that we all go through in order to justify our reliance on a chemical.

Soon you will come to celebrate tragedy and hard times because it will give you a reason to break your rules and go on a real bender. You know, because rules are important but who can blame you for checking out for a few days after your dog dies or whatever?

The temporary joy of rewarding yourself for experiencing hardship will cause you to see nothing but bleakness until eventually you give in and embrace seeking escape full time.

There is nothing unique about this. You will only lead yourself down a path of sorrow and an inability to to see the beautiful things that surround you.

Seriously, turn back.


[5 Points] Vendor_BBMC:

I recognize the way you're talking. I lived with a heroin addict girlfriend. It's "Junkie Logic". You know people with worse habits than your own. There's still time. "I'm moving in the right direction. I'm gonna do x, y, z tomorrow, next week, eventually. At least I'm thinking about it".

It IS possible for some people to use heroin recreationally, quite a lot. But you've reached decision time. The crossroads. Hence this post for yourself.

A heroin habit is a full-time job, and you have to be super-organized and think about the future to maintain using darknet marketplaces, with scammers and market downtime and the post. But to use heroin is to avoid thinking of the future. You'll have to walk fast shouting "6 brown. Nearly there mate" into a non-smart phone, arguing with a hard-faced girl with a ponytail and a can of strong lager who's chipping in with you, and secretly thinks you used more than your share. Real-life heroin dealers are very rude, they have no manners.

My ex was a good woman. But when she was starting to withdraw if I was between her and a bag of heroin, she would have dug through me with a melon spoon and climbed through my chest to get it. You can't have somebody like that around you, and they won't stay around you unless you are where the heroin is.

This post isn't for us. Its for you. You only snort heroin right now. There seem to be many roads open to you in your life. You could go anywhere. But with heroin users, all roads lead to one destination.

When you have that needle in your vein, you will remember reading this. I'm not criticizing, because you might be happy most of the time. But you will surprise yourself with the lows you are capable of.


[3 Points] DarkKnight_1111:

Lol @ blowin dudes for a fix. I have been a super hardcore heroin addict for like 9 years and never blown a dude in my life haha, never even come close. I know you were kidding but just had to point that out. I dont think you will stay at your current using pattern for long. Inevitably, mabye slowly, depends on the indvidual, you will develop a nasty habit and shit will start falling apart. Unless you are part of the 1% that for some reason that just doesnt ever happen to. At any rate, good luck, I sincerely hope heroin doesnt make you her number one bitch.


[2 Points] TheOpiateKing:

Give it some time brother and the inevitable will happen.


[1 Points] RIP_Meth_9000:

Add some meth & BAM.....Straight to the moon!!!!!!!!


[1 Points] None:

Dude, head over to r/opiates. Hundreds of identical posts. This is classic starting point right here, honestly.


[1 Points] Sir_Blunt:

H might not be ruining your life now but a few years of this and you will be in a world of hell. It already sounds like you are fucked. A gram every couple of days is NOT a gentle habbit. Your withdrawls will be horrible , you just dont know it yet because you haven't gone long periods without a fix. All you are doing is deluding yourself.


[1 Points] None:

Dude this is not going to end well no matter what you think or whatever . You might be doing fine now keep it up an you won't . Seriously nobody is invincible to heroin addiction. You will keep using it more an more . The Good thing is you don't have a IRL connect or you would fucked. Other people have started out like this thinking there good an they all end up with a needle in their arm. Heroin addiction is a life long battle an it sucks


[1 Points] Throwaw1776:

You're 3yrs away from blowing dudes.... but seriously, that's how it starts for most of us. When you're using on a regular basis your brain starts creating more mu receptors. Eventually your brain is just chock full of em and you have to keep most of them full to not be sick.

The withdrawls will get worse and worse, your tolerance will get insane. Doses that would kill you now will barely keep you out of wd. It gets almost impossible to get high. You either feel normal, slightly buzzed, or you did enough to be in a hard nod and you're probably close to falling out. You spend most of your time and money just trying to feel normal, or not too sick at least, so you can function in your daily life.

Heroin is really no different than vics and percs when it comes down to it, they'll all take hold and fuck you relentlessly. Kratom isn't getting to the root of the issue when you have wd, it's just throwing other opioids on those receptors, not much different than popping some pills.

You've already got a steady habit, you're on your way to being fucked. Stop now or you'll look back on this moment in a couple years and realize everyone's advice was correct. We all start with a responsible, manageable habit that doesn't get you sick, or too sick, and it always turns into a crippling dependence.


[1 Points] fiendor2000:

You're doing it definitively too often and too much. If you keep on that way it's highly likely you'll get seriously addicted. You don't want that. Once every the or for months is plenty. Cut down on it without going back to drinking. Maybe smoke some weed if you need to clear your head. And deal with your shit.