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[11 Points] BonerTickler:
[7 Points] 100x100ug:
[5 Points] aboutthednm:
Where do I unsubscribe from your blog?
[3 Points] TheOpiateKing:
Why can't you listen to music? Yes that's my question because you didn't explain anything so no one can really respond.
[3 Points] None:
So how about we stop acting like 12 year olds and get some facts sorted.
You had someone die so you started smoking a lot of weed.
Somehow (related to the weed smoking?) you incurred a debt.
You told a friend or associate that you had access to high quality/quantity drugs. They give you the money, you send the money off and never got your product?
This whole thing reads like a poor attempt to get sympathy money for a story that you are piecing together as you go along. Sorry for being cynical but drugs and stories like this are usually a call for a handout.
[2 Points] sapiophile:
If you're in North America, pack a good backpack, hitch to New England and kick it at the National Rainbow Gathering holding camp.
[2 Points] disposable43436878:
My empire of dirt.
[1 Points] Toddler_Annihilator:
What was the 'first' fuck-up that started this whole chain, if you don't mind me asking? I have an idea of how you feel. I feel like we all reach these sorts of cross-roads that determine what is to come. I like reading about other people's lives and their respective cause and effect dynamics.
[1 Points] thr0wawayisthr0waway:
Its an awful place to be. Having let down people, doing things you never thought you where capable of doing. I used to have a massive heroin addiction. About two years ago I fooled myself into thinking I could handle the pills that I would receive for a surgery. Surprise ! I couldn't, and I was back on the H train.
I would nod out when I was watching my daughter ( she was 4 ), I was a complete piece of shit. I had a white collar job at a big a-list software company and am shooting/snorting in the bathroom at work.
Thinking it couldn't get much worse it did, my wife left me and took the house. I got 50/50 custody so am OK there but, let me tell you how embarrassing having to move back in to my parents house was.
I was done, I swear to god if I didn't have my daughter I would have shot myself. So for whatever reason, I got a sudden burst to change and I went into rehab for a 90 day program. Am I totally clean ?... NO but I am not shooting dope or popping oxy's. The rest I can live with. I have a house again, me and my daughters relationship rocks and am seeing a new girl.
The fucked up piece is I have done this all before, in my 20's. I went to prison for intent/burglary. That is whole different story.
All am saying by this wall of text is you have two choices really. Ride this shit storm out, working when you can to repair any damage that was done or, you can give up and die. Whats done is done and you cannot take it back now. I cant guarantee you when things will get better, they may get much worse before they get better but, as long as you don't give up they will come back around.
[1 Points] None:
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[1 Points] None:
For as many words you used in your post, you have told us almost nothing about what is really going on. A little more detail, please?
[1 Points] papayabananatree:
Don't fuck around with your sleep. You need it. Put all the electronics away and just sleep. Without sufficient sleep, you can't function at 100%. You might think it's better to lose sleep to get stuff done, but take it from science, you need sleep. It increases your productivity such that you can get more done in 16 hours of wakefulness than you might in 18-20 hours of sleep-deprived misery
[1 Points] Dicksmith47:
No one cares that you borrowed money to buy drugs and lost it. There's so many warnings about this going back to silk road
[1 Points] drdoompants:
you rape what you swo
[1 Points] eyelurck:
Fess up to your family/friends. Let them know everything you told us here. See if they pitch in. If they do, make it up to them tenfold once you're back on your feet and stay forever away from any substance you "need" be it weed, h, alcohol or chocolate.
Run.
Kill yourself over some weed and money.
Go to jail and/or get murdered.
You pick one.
[0 Points] retroracer:
oh lord, get a hold yourself
Thanks for being just vague enough to stop me from giving a shit.