I have vended in the past. On and off since SR2. It usually ends up consuming me and I push everyone in my life away because I just constantly feel like a shady fuck from living a double life. I end up alone, isolated and just consumed by money and material shit.
I back away, my life gets pretty normal but I literally have no other skills because I have sold drugs in one way or another since I was 14 years old.
I can get an OK job making $20 per hour but the real money just keeps calling me. Always. The addiction to money creeps into my inner most being. I like nice, fancy, shiny crap.
Is there anyway for me to live this double life and not have the darker side of it consume me? Being an isolated DN vendor is literally the loneliest I have ever been in my life. But I was making fucking bank.
Take more vacations with loved ones. Set monetary goals and mandatory breaks from vending. Take more classes at your local community college. Read a book.