I don't hate you. Many people have been personally hurt, lost loved ones or other pertinent characters in their lives to you. You aren't rich, you are desperate in some senses, you can't miss a paycheck, you cannot risk it for yourself or your family even if you wish to defect to us. We have little material means to offer you even if you did. We are just names and faces, we come and go but you will remain. We almost aren't real, you are though, you will remain a constant to you but our lives matter to almost no degree. Many of us will go away to the American Siberia. Some of us will die young. You won't though.
You must impress the boss, you must pursue us to all extents you are capable of with every means you have available. Just as we will defend ourselves against your attacks with all defenses we posses. Your industry does not have the funding it needs, you must solicit funds from us. We are always in excess, some of us, others eat their ideology and few other foods.
Please continue. We are nothing without you, although in childrens' textbooks some years from now, you will be the villain. Not us. These drugs do not harm, you are inflicting harm to protect yourselves and your families, the same way all great evils have done since the dawn of humanity. The more you learn, the less you care and the more entrenched you are in your activities. I can't dissuaded you, or even offer substantial reason to stop. But I don't want you to.
By the very nature of economics, drugs are only valuable because they are scarce and vended in rarity. If they were legal, and easily available, there would be no profit, and no person of any logic or reason would sell any, for every hobbyist and ideologue would out compete every cash starved individual out of the market. Fortunately for this community, you slaughter them in a very regular culling. Perhaps I too many be among them, perhaps not.
You know what must be done. My words are as meaningless as my life, but PM me if you want to talk
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