I've been a (severe) drug addict for atleast 7 years now, and for about 2 years I was only getting my drugs off of the DNMs. Surprisingly/unsurprisingly one of the first drugs I ordered off the markets (Nucleus RIP) was Methamphetamine. It was for the same reason I have seen HUNDREDS of teenagers and young adults order meth as well, their ADD/ADHD medication either runs out too fast nowadays, they just want to be higher for longer, or they don't have their own script and are sick of spending $10 on like 20mg of Amphetamine Salts from their friend in science class that can never sit still.
I much too often see people ask "What's a good, cheap replacement for my ADD/ADHD medication?" And like 30 people just say "Just fuckin order some crystal and boof it pussy." (I want to say I'm paraphrasing but I'm almost positive that's been said here plenty of times). And after shooting up nearly every drug that can be shot up on this planet, especially meth, I've got A LOT to say about this.
If you're past say... 25 or so, and you've done plenty of heaving drinking and hard drugging, and would likely consider yourself an addict, there's not much I can say to stop you from ordering meth. Because let's be honest, it's quite literally the most effective and cheapest alternative to Adderall/Vyvanse/Dexedrine, etc. It gets you incredibly high regardless of the RoA, although it REALLY fucks you up if you shoot or even boof it. It lasts seemingly forever, literally days from one average dose. It feels like a much stronger and more effective version of Adderall, because it is. And it's probably the cheapest heavily addictive drug out there, $100 of Heroin lasted me 24 hours if I tried to use it sparingly, and $100 of Methamphetamine lasted me weeks and weeks. Even with nearly daily use. I know everyone is different and some people do like fuckin' half gram shots of high quality meth, but that's insane and I would be dead in a month if I started doing that.
That being said, if you're a responsible person, if you've got a car, a house, a job, a savings account that isn't negative, etc. then holy mother of God, DO NOT TRY AND USE METH RESPONSIBLY. I'm tired of the "It's easy as fuck, I'm 16 and use meth as a replacement for Adderall every day. Just put it in a capsule and swallow it instead of smoking, snorting, shooting, or plugging it." Methamphetamine is not something people should be messing with period, especially daily. I end up in the hospital about 75% of the time I go on a meth binge. You will see people, animals, objects that aren't really there after a while. You will hear voices that you genuinely think are real no matter how intelligent and level-headed you are. When you're binging meth and you're up for 4 days, you are guaranteed to NOT be level headed. It fucks with a person's sanity on a terrifying level.
If your doctor cut off your script because you're abusing it, find another doctor, stick it out and keep buying actual pharmaceutical meds, or try something safer and also cheap such as modafinil, phenethylamine, phenylpiracetam, and many other USUALLY safer alternatives that can be found on the markets. I understand needing a boost in energy and motivation to get more homework done, or wake up in the morning, but just like all hard drugs, meth literally makes you more lethargic, depressed, lazy, and overall stupid after even very little use. It's not worth jumping from weed and Adderall every day to meth. It will fuck you and your life up, bringing the people you care about down with you. It's an extremely evil and sinister substance that can destroy even the most dedicated person's willpower.
Coming from someone who did exactly what i'm saying not to do, let me be the failed experiment. Learn from my mistakes and find healthier ways to achieve the things you want in life.
I just want to get off adderall. I'm so sick of worrying every month if I'm going to run out. I want to function well without it...I'm too afraid to try. I know I'll be a mess.