Another Update on my current habit

So I received so much love and help from this community when I first asked for some help on kicking my opiate habit (https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMarkets/comments/3a89v2/trying_to_kick_the_habit_need_a_little_help/) and also garnered a lot more insight when i did an update shortly after (https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMarkets/comments/3bbj9q/habit_kick_update/). Its been almost a month since the second update so I thought you guys might care to know how Ive been.

Since then, I've been clean (except for a one-day relapse, but it was a special occasion). I was able to reach my goal of a month with no regular use, and I dont really see any reason to go back now. Thanks to everyone's kind words and recommendations, I was able to use a mix of suboxone, kratom, xanax, and good ol ganja to get through my W/D. After that it was just the mental game and staying away from that aspect of my life. I am happy to say it was quite a smooth success.

I havn't felt clean living for this long in a little over a year, and it feels awesome. Originally, I planned to just stay clean for a month and then jump back into using, but living life clean for the passed 30 days or so hasn't been much of a challenge at all. I dont think I am going to voluntarily put myself back into the cycle with H. Sitting here now, that seems silly, but a month ago, the idea of getting to use after all this time was what motivated me to stay clean to begin with. With a clear head, I'm thinking the right idea would be to continue to abstain for as long as I can, especially since once the summer is over, I am going to be back at school and in an area where dope is much harder for me to get. Having a headstart on sobreity will only serve to make my life easier. In addition to that, from what I am hearing, the dope scene on the DNMs is deteriorating and I dont think there are many vendors with good gear left. If it's reduced to street garbage and scammers only then, who knows, maybe I'll just stay clean forever (yeah, right!). If anyone has had any recent experience with any bomb gear online feel free to let me know!

Anyway, I want to say thank you again for everyone's love and support on my last two posts. I dont really care about upvotes or karma or any of that, I just felt that maybe one or two of you out there would get some comfort knowing your words really did help me. I love this community so much and am so proud to be a part of it. Keep on keeping on and stay safe out there :)

PastaParty


Comments


[3 Points] pgpnoobsucha:

Thinking about kicking forever is WAY too overwhelming....you only have to do it one day at a time...I know that's cliche ...but it works. Keep your head up...your life will turn out infinitely better if you stay off dope.you sound like a young level headed person. Don't let the bitch ruin you.


[3 Points] Vendor_BBMC:

well done.

But somebody needs to say that using the sweet anticipation of when you will start using again as motivation for quitting is "junky logic".

You're in deep when you find yourself using that logic, because its like a sat nav that pretends to go somewhere, but it only takes you to one inevitable destination.


[1 Points] The_Grid_Is_Up:

Happy one month! Keep it going!


[1 Points] HofmannsHeir:

No reason you can't kick the H for life. Keep on keepin on, good luck!


[1 Points] EeeeewwwwTits:

Congratz!


[1 Points] Chancelastington:

Proud of ya buddy! I wish I could do that, I keep lapsing. Clean for 2-3months on for a year, clean for 2years on for 3... Rinse and repeat :(


[1 Points] HulkVsMeth:

Congrats brotha man!!! :) iv been clean for a solid 4 months and I know everyday is a battle. I look at dope online everyday and just wish I could be high but then I think about my friends who OD'd and died and my little brothers watching me nodded off when they try and talk to me with cig burns in all my clothes cause I'd fall asleep with a cig in my hand. I'm proud of you my friend!!! I know your struggle and pain. I was a user for 3 years


[1 Points] None:

congrats on the month month! you say you want to stay clean then ask about vendors with bomb dope. lol come on now. as an opiate addict you know better than anyone you can't do that. it may work the first time. maybe even the second time. eventually you will get back on the opiates, though.


[1 Points] None:

Any chance you can give insight to suboxone use and how to use it for getting off oxy/percocet? I personally don't like the nod, more the energetic effect from light doses


[1 Points] ciphersexual:

Thanks for the update. Please continue to participate in the convos on this sub - the more perspectives the better.


[1 Points] None:

I got put some sbs and started off shooting it it, then went to sniffing it, now i shoot it maybe once a day and rest goes toward my RC BENZO MXE/P/M 3-MeO-PCP fund. I'ts been since months since ive done dope and I dont even think about it anymore. The combo of benzos and dissosiatives is just way more enjoyable honestly.

Itstead of shooting up getting an awesome rush and worry about your next fix and how your gunna get money I make my new DOCs last for 2 weeks tops for the cost of a days worth of dope. NORBUPRENORPHINE is enough painkiller for me.

Still thking about trying one of those RC fent's they have out but idk yet.


[1 Points] XeroxSnowman:

My roommate is a dope fiend who is trying to kick the habit. Could you describe what process, recipie you followed? I soon will get access to Suboxone script (I am not a user though) if that helps.


[0 Points] Harvardnigga:

Are you high now ?