why oh why oh why

To all the people here, I will say I am sorry now.

I fell a need to vent, and because this is the area that I look to, please allow me to vent, and ask questions:

I come here looking on feed back for cannabis.

I started using cannabis a year ago...after 42 years around the sun, and retiring from the US Military....

Why I use....well, I tried killing myself and my family a number of times because of the shit the VA gave me. Do I blame them? (No, I actually believe that where I am, the personal I deal with are actually looking out for my best interest). That's beside the point My issue: I found something that actually brings me back to what I would consider normal (pre deployment).

I got this way via a lot of research and the darknet. Where I live cannabis is illegal in all forms. I thought I had an "IN"....but..doom on me, the "market" crumbles. And "life" as I know it goes back to being shit...I have about "that much" to get by. And I don't know how to find what I was using to survive.

I really hate sounding like the "whooooooo-ist me" but.....I've been drunk...way, way, way too fucking much to try and deal I am right now

[Where I live, I can't find the quality of Meds I was ordering]

So, after the self pity party.....I am asking...where should I go, who should I go through.

I would like to get back to "normal", which I know is pretty much impossible in my current state.

I was ordering via SR1 ( I know old as hell, and busted), ordered via sheep, ordered via TMP, algora, and CR)

Now, I am completely lost. The truly sad part of the my situation is, I live in a very, very liberal area....and I cannot find the same cannabis that I could order via the darknet.

So, where are people going for help?


Comments


[4 Points] ThrowAwayMyNonsense:

Suck it up and do some research. You've been in this a while- multiple markets- find a new one. You know why I'm using this tone, and you know that you can handle this- look at all you've been through, some fucking jackoff Cur called a shitty play and it fucked your op, but we don't stop, we get the job done.

Adapt and survive.


[2 Points] None:

Go to evo, links in the side bar. I also recommend you to try out shrooms, it helps with PTSD.


[2 Points] Kwitcher_Bitchin:

Dude! move to Oregon, PTSD is grounds for medical cannabis, plus next year it will be legal for recreation. grow your own or get a grower, free weed!


[1 Points] None:

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[1 Points] chrissorrenson:

You could grow your own - or travel to states where cannabis is legal.


[0 Points] None:

I have been buying weed since SR1 and have yet to be scammed, ripped off, or shipped bad product. I myself am going to have to go through this soon as Agora was my go to. I am looking at Evolution, and have ordered 4g of 'Shatter' from WilliamShattner (sp?). I have yet to see a actual flower (the plant, not a concentrate) on Evo that I feel is worth trying. But I have not looked very far. I have this sort of, sixth sense when it comes to listings lol. I can't describe it.

I will reply to this thread as soon as I look which will probably be when I get home from work this morning (8:00AM EST). I really relate to your story because I am in the same boat. Not the whole military thing but weed has most definitely saved my life.