I made a similar comment earlier in another thread, figured I'd just make a post out of it; Even if it doesn't end up helping anyone ever, it's the candid account of a person who struggled with chronic masturbation and an addiction to pornography. I think i'd be intrigued
The pronlonged jerk seshes didn't start happening until my sophmore year in colleege. I don't really know how I got the idea but I think I might even remember the first night I reallly dedicated serious time to it. I got a little older and just didn't have the time to do it, but that amphetamine-to-internet-porn-wank-sesh-association had turned into a full blown addiction by the time I decided to acknowledge the problem. It was kind of fucked up. I couldn't help myself. Those jerk off binges were starting fuck with my life.
I'd get home at 8 or 9pm and say "just one hour to beat off," next thing I knew it's 6 in the morning and I'm still looking for vids and jpegs. I wasn't getting laid at all dude. Wasn't going out much. Wasn't sleeping enough, Amp tolerance rising. Spendig more money on amp. I was gaining weight. Out of nowhere putting all this weight on. I was just disgusted with myself. Completely disgusted. It was all tied to long nights of watching porn and jerking off. I'd never admit it in person but my addiction to porn was literally ruining my life. I always had control over the amp until the porn started factoring in. A mid-high functioning amp addict turned into a gringy home-dweller for more time than he'd care to rememeber. After I quit the porn for good (took many trials & errors) amp leveled itself to wherever we had left off before.
I'm really glad I was able to get past that though. 16 months ago I was contemplating suicide over an addiction to porn. I would be dead, you wouldn't be reading this, and my parents would be sad.
It probably doesn't happen often, but knowing It's happening makes me feel bad because I know most people dealing with it aren't going to tell anyone. They might not need advice on how to not watch porn, but temporary no-fap, long term pornfree sponsor. How many people would be willing to be the guy someone calls when he's afraid he's won't be ablte to resist jerking off for 8 straight hours if you and him don't go to a farmer's market or some shit asap?
Idk how many people would be at risk for this type of thing, it's a pretty emberassing problem so who knows how reliable the data is on porn and jerk off addicitions, nvm porn/amp/jo addictions. But there's probably people out there dealing with it who are to emberassed' to talk about it. Some of them might not realize they can quit the porn without quitting the wanking. Some people might not even realize it's starting to become or already is a proble
My advice to anyone out there who isn't spending the entire evening jerking of on amp is not to start. A lot of guys like to joke about getting all amped and beat the meat out of their dicks, I bet at least half of those guys have been doing it long enough they feel dissaointed in themselves at the end of each sesh.
I'm not trying to rag on porn at all or guys who watch it. There's plenty of dudes who do these jerk sessions just a couple times a month or year and have complete control. Well, I applaud you gentleman, with my two free hands.
Amphetamines can be a powerful tool for self-improvement. It can help motivate you to do or encourage you to to try and learn things you felt incapable of or intimidated by before, it can tap unharnessed potential you were unaware you had. These drugs can also turn on you like that. By the time you're there, you're already belly crawling through the shit
I jack off in the shower now. Kind of like Kevin Spacey in American Beauty except I don't hunch over like a fucking hill creature when I bust a nut. I steady my stance, maintain my posture, realign my grip and pump purpose. I also fuck the daughters cheerleader friend at the end of the movie. For sure. s
But didn't beat off for a long time. Around 6 months after I quit I was sleeping more regularly, lost the weight as fast as I put it on. I barely thought about porn now but I at this point I had barely talked to, let alone fucked a girl in 1.5 maybe 2 years. I was nervous it had mbeen so long. I used to do alright with the ladies, not a stud any means but you know. That waas a weird time. I would be driving in my car thinking about like kissing and shit like I was 14. I had to socially retrain myself in a lot of ways. I hired a few escorts before fucking anyone else or really trying even. I was nervous I wouldn't be able to do it, I don't mean get hard. Shit man I could stick my dick in a snowman's ass and make him prolapse. Just like the touching and shit. I felt like such. Pulled it together sooner or later. Have a few drinks to cool the nerves in your head and dick; turns out, even following hiatus, fucking comes pretty naturally
Edit: Guys. PM me about your jerkoff addiction. I want to help. I don't know if I can but at least you know I've been there. I can sympathize. If your situation seems at all similar to mine, your mightbe getting worse every day. I don't care what it is *(Disclaimer: Unless its kid fucking)** Opening up a dialog might be a good place to start. If you're worried about identity just don't give away any identifying info. I am incapable of judgement at this point. You're talking to thie filthiest dick beater in all the lands. If you feel like typing out some thoughts on the problem might be helpful, by all means do it. I'll do ny best to assist.
Every time you think of The Prince of France just picture a beacon of light that guideth thy hand which with thoust doth wanketh
Until NPR does a segment on this. I'm probably the best you could hope for.
Edit again: The first link the Daily OPsec Tip on this sub leads to today is ampedsoftware.com How very fiting
Can confirm the 8 hour meth jack sesh is for real. And the orgasm when it finally comes is like a fuckin grand mal seizure of euphoria for like a full minute. I never got addicted to it to where I would crave just the jack sesh but whenever I did meth best believe 96 hours straight of porn was a very good possibility unless I was with a girl then I just tear that shit up until we both cant walk correctly.