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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: StuntBum on May 18, 2012, 04:25 am

Title: Broke Junkie
Post by: StuntBum on May 18, 2012, 04:25 am
Life fucking sucks!  All I want is to get high, and very soon!  I have been waiting months to get off probation and it has finally happened.  Now I have no job, no source of income.  I am about to lose the house I bought four years ago which will be devastating.  I work my ass off to do everything right (I was off probation 4 months early) but in the end I feel as if I have taken 5 steps back for each forward.  I honestly don't know what to do anymore, of course there is suicide but that's just not my MO.  I have worked so hard for everything I have especially since I was pm;y 20 when I bought this place.

I have not had the oppertunity to get fucked up properly which is sad.  I would love me some of this fire coke I hear soo much about on the Silk Road, that or a fat sack of heroin! But at this rate I'm never going to be able to do either of these things.  HOW DEPRESSING!

Maybe one of these days the drug gods will be looking over my shoulder grinning for me as I stare at a couple grams of each.  I'm not counting on it, but I can dream.

I just wish something of the sort actually happens before I am truly homeless!

God bless my mother for helping with bills when she could be now money is tight for her as well. Now I am without a doubt on my own with nothing but negative thoughts clouding my head.  I just need a night off of all this depressing thought fueled by cocaine and heroin.

We all know this will never happen.  If I cant even pay my water bill, how the hell am I to score a couple grams of this bomb as coke?  And the heroin...FUCK ME!

Love you all!

Stunt Bum
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: deadkndys420 on May 18, 2012, 04:42 am
Do what all junkies do as a means of income.

STEAL
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: Molly Meldrum on May 18, 2012, 04:44 am
And that's why I stay away from H and Coke.

I wish you all the best though man, I've gone through some similar shit and it really makes the difference when you have a supportive family, be very grateful for that. I hope things look up for you dude. I'd donate if I could but it's against my morals and I'm broke as fuck as well :(
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: StuntBum on May 18, 2012, 04:56 am
The reason I'm losing everything is not due ti drug use, I have not used a drug in years.

The reason I am losing everything is due to job loss and not finding anything available that will help me recover.

I was just hoping to one day do some coke or H.

Just because I mention these "demonized" drugs that automatically is the reason I'm losing everything I've worked so hard for?  I mentioned them because I wanted ONE last dance with them, maybe to put all my thougbts ane anxiety to rest for a night.

I really hate how some people come to the conclusion because I've used hard drugs, that these drugs are to blame for my misery! :(  How hurtful

Peace

Stunt Bum
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: PlaneMode on May 18, 2012, 04:57 am
Do what all junkies do as a means of income.

STEAL

SEX
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: UKGrower on May 18, 2012, 05:13 am
I feel like a broken record sometimes saying this, but i'll say it again:  Grow weed.

If you have your own place, and can manage to keep it for the next few months, get a grow on, keep your mouth shut about it, and sell your harvest anonymously on SR.

This doesn't help you much in the short term, but it is a potential route out of poverty.  The initial investment is minimal, and the rewards are huge, provided you can keep your mouth shut.  There is a learning curve if you want good results, but the plant grows slowly enough that you have time to absorb the information you need for the next stage in the process.
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: jpinkman on May 18, 2012, 05:44 am
I feel like a broken record sometimes saying this, but i'll say it again:  Grow weed.

If you have your own place, and can manage to keep it for the next few months, get a grow on, keep your mouth shut about it, and sell your harvest anonymously on SR.

This doesn't help you much in the short term, but it is a potential route out of poverty.  The initial investment is minimal, and the rewards are huge, provided you can keep your mouth shut.  There is a learning curve if you want good results, but the plant grows slowly enough that you have time to absorb the information you need for the next stage in the process.

Dude if he can't even afford to pay his water bill how is he supposed to front for grow lights, supplies, and fert. Plus there's a learning curve, like you mentioned. Totally unrealistic given his circumstances.
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: Gary Oak on May 18, 2012, 05:48 am
No offense but labeling yourself as a 'broke junkie' really doesn't help your case, so that's why we're more inclined to believe your despair has come by as a result of drug use. If you're really that desperate for money then sell your computer and buy your DOC from a public library. Also I'm confused about the point of this thread....is this just a rant or are you trying to get pity from us? ???
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: aloutte on May 18, 2012, 05:52 am
No offense but labeling yourself as a 'broke junkie' really doesn't help your case, so that's why we're more inclined to believe your despair has come by as a result of drug use. If you're really that desperate for money then sell your computer and buy your DOC from a public library. Also I'm confused about the point of this thread....is this just a rant or are you trying to get pity from us? ???

Hey, maybe he can set up a Kickstarter.  The "Get a Self-Described Broke Junkie High Project".
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: UKGrower on May 18, 2012, 06:06 am
Dude if he can't even afford to pay his water bill how is he supposed to front for grow lights, supplies, and fert. Plus there's a learning curve, like you mentioned. Totally unrealistic given his circumstances.

No unrealistic at all, since i've been where he is (minus the whole junkie part).

As for how to afford/obtain initial supplies, well that is up to him, but like I said, the initial investment is minimal, compared to the rewards.

I suppose it depends on how much deep shit he is in financially, and how many people he may still be able to call upon for various resources, but where there's a will, there's usually a way. Corporations move slowly, and many of them are happy for you to get into debt with them for a while, so hopefully utilities can be covered for a couple of months (and if not, there are "alternative" methods of obtaining them).

My post was a suggestion as to something the OP could work towards, that will give him a fair chance of being less poor, if he can pull it off successfully.  Growing's not easy, but it's hardly rocket science either, and the "learning curve" could also be considered as a "hobby", and is quite a constructive and rewarding use of your time, especially if the alternative is sitting there being depressed about all the drugs you are unable to afford.
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: StuntBum on May 18, 2012, 06:11 am
I was a former junkie.  Obviously people 20 years into their recovery still call themselves alcoholics or junkie's in my case.  I'm not looking for pity this is more of a rant.  I'm just at my wits end guys.  Sorry if anyone took this the wrong way.
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: shock1171 on May 18, 2012, 06:43 am
stop asking for vendors to send you free shit
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: jpinkman on May 18, 2012, 07:52 am

No unrealistic at all, since i've been where he is (minus the whole junkie part).


You're preaching to the converted, which is why I'm saying it IS unrealistic to ask a guy who can't even get it together enough to afford a couple grams of H and C on here to get enough capital together for start up costs not to mention he's jobless and about to lose his house.
It took me almost six months, and that was mostly from the learning curve of how to properly take clones and one devastating noob mistake, before I saw a dime. That was six months of impoverished hell coming up with rent, paying a much higher utility bill, and buying more supplies when I got it wrong. Like I said, totally unrealistic given the destitution he described.

I think the intention of the OP is the same as one of those guys you see on street corners looking as pitiful as possible with their hand out chanting "spare change?".
Title: Re: Broke Junkie
Post by: StuntBum on May 18, 2012, 07:56 am
stop asking for vendors to send you free shit

Please tell me where exactly I was asking any vendor at all to send me anything for free.  The whole basis of this post was for me to rant.

There have been a couple of rude people in here, WHY?  I thought I was being very civil throughout my posts here.  Sometimes people have hard times and that's just live, and yes I am bitching/ranting about it.

And again just because I call myself a junkie does not mean I am an active user.  When you are in recovery whether a week deep or 40 years people still refer to themselves as junkies/alcoholics/addicts.  Please let me be, sorry I posted on an open board about how I felt.

Peace

Stunt Bum