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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: stockton56 on March 30, 2012, 10:39 pm
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i want to kill myself. im totally ok with it and would have a long time ago if not for my family. idk what to do. i dont even talk to them or live in the same state but i know it would devestate them. im simply not selfish enough. sometimes i think theyre the selfish ones because we dont even get along. but i know thats just rationalizing. i have no friends nor prospects of making any. i often contemplate using/od'ing on heroin. been sad elementary school and anti depressants dont change the fact that i have no friends. im addicted to drugs and i just need to vent anonymously because i guess theres not much advice anyone can provide.
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Why does everbody on here want to commit suicide? Oo
Again: If you want to do it, do it, if you don't do it because you think "I can't do it because of (...)" or something like that, you don't want to do it.
But why don't just wait and see what life will bring? See life as a game. That's the way I made it.
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Why does everbody on here want to commit suicide? Oo
Again: If you want to do it, do it, if you don't do it because you think "I can't do it because of (...)" or something like that, you don't want to do it.
But why don't just wait and see what life will bring? See life as a game. That's the way I made it.
You sound like the most sane person, yet.
"But why don't just wait and see what life will bring? See life as a game. That's the way I made it."
I aint going to commit suicide eva, Imma breath till we fuck over the only place we call home, Earth.
Parasite till i die, brothers...parasite till i die ;) hehehe.
but in all seriousness, go on a nice walk, take some shrooms, explore, what do you have to lose? but the only reality you know...
but whats so special about SilkRoad, why post your last words there....get to more people, id try Yahoo Answers.
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Sniff a fat line of ketamine
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i want to kill myself. im totally ok with it and would have a long time ago if not for my family. idk what to do. i dont even talk to them or live in the same state but i know it would devestate them. im simply not selfish enough. sometimes i think theyre the selfish ones because we dont even get along. but i know thats just rationalizing. i have no friends nor prospects of making any. i often contemplate using/od'ing on heroin. been sad elementary school and anti depressants dont change the fact that i have no friends. im addicted to drugs and i just need to vent anonymously because i guess theres not much advice anyone can provide.
It's just a hard world sometimes, man, and can look like it'll never get better, makes suicide seem reasonable. I've felt at time that I couldn't go on, and yet outwards, it looked like my life was in good shape. I can't talk too much about me, because I don't want my identiy going out, but I can say that life moments when I'm glad I stuck round, glad I got to see life on planet earth. Hard part was finding meaning: I never really did. But I started reading these old existentialists, guys that were alive around World War II time, and they seemed to feel that you could function in a world without meaning, but it gave you freedom, which could be frightening, but exhilarating too. I don't know if you like reading, but reading some of these people made me not feel so alone with my thoughts. I'd read crazy, like Camus, Bukowski, Burroughs, Sartre, Thompson...lots of guys, make you laugh at it, rather than cry.
I found heroin in the military, and thought it was great, but then I found out what came with it, not so great, and have given so much of my life to it, but suicide isn't any answer, you need to choose some better option. Heroin is a temporary respite, but gets bad too, tho I've never really beaten it.
Well don't get all discouraged, many of us have felt the same, yet still the world spins, with us on it -- Hang in there....off to bed :)
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Sniff a fat line of ketamine
I'd say run a k / yayo combo...
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i want to kill myself.
You are best off committing self-immolation before the government in protest of the discriminatory treatment endured by people using drugs :-)
+1
I smell an album cover... (he he... smell)
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Depression is a illness and when you want to commit suicide its a sign you ought to talk to someone.
Drugs are not good right now. Depends what you use but for the main part touching yayo or coke for depression is silly. Some drugs might work - the ketamine situation is such that its actually used in trials to help depression. Read up on some report on the other forum which details someone using K for depression once a week.
Some drugs can isolate yourself from family and when your not thinking straight maybe you fall out with some people.
Best to sort out your addiction which is going to impact on depression as its a vicious circle with some drugs.
People ought to be sympathetic but there are better forums to seek help out there for depression.
Do ask for help and don't keep things in. Talk to people you know and trust. Or rebuild your life so its one were you have people to trust. With some drugs such as coke or heroin, E or speed, it can help depression but the comedown is too much for anyone prone to depression. You get addicted and that's one more reason to be down.
Good luck.
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you're not given the choice whether you want to be born so why can't he have the choice not to live?
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you're not given the choice whether you want to be born so why can't he have the choice not to live?
As I said - if he really wants to kill himself, he shall do it.
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Have you tried therapy and medication? Worked for me.
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ya, i have. they didnt work. i took 20 mg of valium and now im not pissy anymore. but i am looking to try a new drug would you guys recommend heroin or ketamine? just to try. kmfkewm your serious input would be greatly appreciated.
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Seriously, heroin, ketamine, valium (...) won't help you solve your problems. I don't want to say they're bad (used valium some times myself), but they won't lead you to a solution. If you want to face and solve your problems, try LSA, LSD, psilocybin (...). But you really have to want it. They WILL NOT help you to forget your problems, but they will help you to find a solution.