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Market => Product requests => Topic started by: YinAnima on April 09, 2012, 11:57 am
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Dear Silk Road,
A friend has sent me here to find help. I am a 20-year-old Filipino Male weighing 155lb in the United States who as been struggling to find Male to Female Hormone replacement therapy. I work two jobs, and have been struggling, I've tried going to my parents for help, at first they were loving and tried to accept my difference but have now decided to pull my psychiatric therapy which I cannot currently afford to continue. I've wasted a decade already to start my transition, and if anyone can help provide medication or a proper diagnosis it would mean the world to me. I have done a massive amount of research on Estrace (Estradiol) and Spironolactone (Anti-androgens) for a do it yourself procedure but any professional opinion can be the difference between me overdosing and dieing from liver damage. I'm also looking for a vendor and can pay, I have been working so hard and am so tired of starving myself in hopes to at least keep a thinner figure.
Please and Thank you, I'm so tired.
Yin Anima.
P.S. Please feel free to contact me
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I'm no doctor... But what your talking about isn't like running a cycle of steroids for hitting the gym. The shit your interested in could have serious consequences if you fuck up. I would definitely not go through with it with out supervision of an outstanding doctor. But also if I were you I would like to find out the mental part of why your not comfortable in the body your in now. Maybe theirs a way to find happiness without having irreversible life changing treatment. In no way am I judging you. As an adult you have the right to do what ever you want to your own body. Just make sure the decision you make is one you can live with. Good luck to you.
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I hope you find peace.
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Thank you for your support. I do understand because I am an adult and did began the transition process professionally with a psychiatrist, however contrary to many of the stereotypes about Filipinos, they hold strong religious values and have pulled their support in order to stall my body to make the process more difficult as the more I develop the more reliable the transition is. Although I know I can as an adult break out because they cannot legally control this, it would cripple my relationship with my family as well as financially make the process harder. In short, they are trying to stall and police me and I can no longer seem to work things out with them which is why I'm trying to work as many jobs as possible so I can find my own stability, however therapy isn't cheap, hormone therapy is more expensive and surgery will cost an arm and a leg especially if I do not get to resume my transition until I'm older.
YinAnima
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I'm sure that if you search hard enough on "underground" or certain scenes you will find what you're looking for.
Maybe staying around the steroid area.
TBH, I'm new to this all too.
But I do wish you luck, it must suck turning to this.
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Oh I must of missed the part where you said you started the transition already with a psychiatrist. I though you were just seeing a psychiatrist. And I'm really sorry to hear about your family bro, that sucks. My dad I'm sure would be pretty freaked out if I was doing what your doing but he would take the bullet and still love his son. If you ever have kids remember what your going thru and make sure you don't make the same mistakes as your father is now, which I'm sure you wont. Lastly all the luck to you. I hope you have a safe journey and come to find a rich meaningful life.
Peace
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Yin Anima, Your problem is one shared by many people both young and old. You're completely not alone in this (source: http://www.experienceproject.com/groups/Want-A-Sex-Change/184966). Unfortunately many parents disagree with their children about the path they choose in life. I'm sure many people on this forum can relate to that. Hormone replacement/sex change is something that is incredibly serious from a medical perspective. I'm sure that you've heard this so many times but it's worth repeating. You can die or seriously damage your long term health from doing improper hormone replacement. If weight loss is your major concerns then I would take a serious look at your diet and exercise levels. The number of calories you should be eating (http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm) vs the amount you do (http://www.nutritiondata.com/) and the amount of exercise you're getting (included in the first link). If you are still not happy with the results then I would get your thyroid test results (I know this may cost $ if you're not covered in the US). Lastly, SR *may* be able to supply steroids for your use but with a proper prescription I guarantee the prices will be far lower (you mentioned the two jobs). I don't know what community you live in but if you connect with the LGBT community they usually provide support and may have a network of more sympathetic doctors and people who can relate to your experience.
The last two options I can think of are a bit more drastic but depending on your situation might work for you. If you live in a rural community or if you aren't connected with your family you can move to an urban center with a prominent LGBT community. I only know US city stereotypes but San Fran comes to mind. You can also save up money and go abroad for the treatment. I won't provide links or other data because it takes a lot of research in order to verify the validity and safety of this option but many people travel to Thailand, the carribean and India for plastic surgery - maybe you can find a doctor there who won't question your choice and perform the therapy for a better price.
I felt like I was rambling a bit (as I do) but I truly hope you find happiness. ~ peace
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Dear SilkRoad
Thank you SilkRoad, I actually do live in the Bay Area so you could imagine there is a very strong LGBT Community who are helping me through this. I found a supplier outside of the SilkRoad because I wouldn't want to incriminate this community in case something did happen as well as what I did find being vended here is not suitable for transitions but for naturally born women with medical problems. (25mg Estradiol is a death wish, it's typically 1 - 5 mg) I will be self medicating still but I'm starting much lower than the typically what is prescribed for safety precautions. Your support meant a lot to me, stay safe Silk Road, I believe in you guys to uphold the value of freedom.
YinAnima