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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: The Nameless on August 29, 2012, 11:55 pm

Title: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: The Nameless on August 29, 2012, 11:55 pm
I'm new to all of this. Forgive me if I've breached any etiquette as I haven't taken a lot of time to figure out the nuances of the deep web.

As the subject implies I need a friend/friends. A person/people that's a good listener, non-judgemental, has real life experience, and is understanding. For at least a while I'll admit that it'll be a pretty one-sided relationship as I feel so lost and trapped right now.  A regular therapist isn't going to cut it for me right now. I'm in a pretty tough situation and I just can't let any of my weaknesses cost me. I have a lot hanging in the balance. Long story short I'm a drug dealer and I'm on the run from the law right now. No its not anything major I'm on the run for and you won't see my name in any wanted posters and I doubt that the police are even aware of my activity or if they are I strongly doubt they have any indictments as I'm fairly cautious. This could be a good opportunity for someone who might be interested in helping people long-term. I'm not a bad guy, I'm not a saint but I've never spilled any blood. I've fought but never with weapons. I'm not the type to rationalize I know the gravity of my actions and the consequences that could follow. But now more than ever its either this or nothing, and I choose this. I'm surrounded by people that don't understand or are just too immature to see the vision that I have for my future.  I just want stability for myself and my family, which from my birth to this very day I've never had. I've never once been stable. The most stable I ever became in life was after I made that first sale. Sad but true. I just want someone that's really mature and wise to talk to. To vent to. Who knows maybe some day it could be a two way street. Anyhow, thanks for listening at the very least. I don't know what I expected, but then again I don't even know what to do.
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: TheBusiness on August 30, 2012, 12:37 am
I'm sure you'll find an anon to vent to. Though an illegal drug trade forum wouldn't have been my first choice for reaching out.
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: punkst0ner on August 30, 2012, 12:44 am
Hey OP  :)
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: The Nameless on August 30, 2012, 01:15 am
I'm sure you'll find an anon to vent to. Though an illegal drug trade forum wouldn't have been my first choice for reaching out.

I figure people in the illegal drug trade would be more understanding about my situation. Most people outside of the lifestyle will tell you to leave it alone immediately hands down as if it were a light switch that you can just cut on and off.
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: The Nameless on August 30, 2012, 03:44 am
I feel what you're saying but I have my family to think of. I'll stop what I'm doing when I know for a fact they have something to fall back on. I just can't leave my wife hanging out here with 2 kids alone. And yeah any day I could get snatched up, but everyday I'm making money. Food on table, clothes on backs. I definitely want out but I don't even know where to start as far as investing my money in long-term goals. But for right now I definitely have to weather this storm.
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: Spunkaroo on August 30, 2012, 12:01 pm
Mate, just vent right here in this thread. Honestly, if you're coming here for someone to listen to, where everyone is trying to be anon, then really the benefit you're getting out of this is the vent, not the advice that people give back. So go right ahead, let it all out.

Just be aware that trolls will troll. But someone helpful might respond as well.
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: BenCousins on August 30, 2012, 12:43 pm
you should try 4chan its great for this kind of stuff
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: fuxmey on August 30, 2012, 01:04 pm
I know someone who can help you, this person is qualified with experience in counseling and psychology.  I believe they can help you if you are serious PM  me and we can work something out. Take care for now...
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: punkst0ner on August 30, 2012, 02:22 pm
I feel what you're saying but I have my family to think of. I'll stop what I'm doing when I know for a fact they have something to fall back on. I just can't leave my wife hanging out here with 2 kids alone. And yeah any day I could get snatched up, but everyday I'm making money. Food on table, clothes on backs. I definitely want out but I don't even know where to start as far as investing my money in long-term goals. But for right now I definitely have to weather this storm.

So, how about selling your ex-MOD armored Land-Rover?

If its a V8 petrol, I'll offer £2000.

Will need to collect in person though.
Title: Re: I need a friend/therapist.
Post by: bracken2 on August 31, 2012, 12:22 am
If you can somehow try get some money together (and I realise at times that's a lot easier said than done) might be worth lawyering up trying to get the LE out of the way. That stuff doesn't go away. At least then you can start to make longer term decisions without fear of a 6am wake up at any time. Knowing nothing of your situation though I don't know what the LE would be lookig for. If your lawyer could make a  deal turn yourself in, register in a rehab (if it was a drug related offence) you never know, might get a non-custodial and that would be a massive weitght off.

Prohibition really sucks , the OP seems decent guy and his life and countless others ruinedf by popping a  pill or smoking a bit of weed. Don't think any of us will ever see attitudes change in our life time though.

I don't know you from Jack but if you ever want send me a PM something not say in public feel free, but when it comes down to it you're going to be  the one making the shit decisions. When I was at rock bottom I tried take a medium- to long term view. Think where I was a year ago (rock bottom still) bur if I started again and treied even with a shit job and prospects things could look a lot different in a year. 10 years now since I gained some kind of control and I really have came a long way. So difficult that first month or two when nothing is improving to just say 'fuck it' though. I did that a few times myself.