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Title: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: kingpin on February 05, 2012, 10:04 am
Hi,

Back in the day maybe 4 years ago, I would get great pills that would your face plastered with a smile from ear to ear and you couldnt have better mates int he world, I miss that kind of high, Ive had mdma crystal since and its great but its still kind of mainly europhic and buzzy etc, I really miss the loved up feeling, what chemical would I be searching for?
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: Barddeep on February 05, 2012, 10:38 am
It probably was the high from mdma. The first time is once in a lifetime. Sorry to have to tell you.
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: shawaddywaddy on February 05, 2012, 11:57 am
That's why I only hit it once a year or so for a couple of days!  Best weekend of the year, every year! :)  Problem is the rest of the year am hammering the ganja instead!  :D  Wooft is my brain fecked!
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: FiveSeven on February 05, 2012, 12:29 pm
That's why I only hit it once a year or so for a couple of days!  Best weekend of the year, every year! :)  Problem is the rest of the year am hammering the ganja instead!  :D  Wooft is my brain fecked!

You mean you roll a couple nights in a row? That alone is probably doing more damage to your future highs than spacing it out over months would be.
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: PervertedPrude on February 05, 2012, 08:00 pm
I think for everyone its different, what causes that "loved up" feeling. Some people find it on MDMA (I didn't). Others on a stim. For me, nothing makes me feel more loving and loved as hitting *just the right dose* of opiates.

But I agree with what's been said-- if MDMA did that for you... not sure it'll be able to do it again.
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: novocaine on February 05, 2012, 09:50 pm
That's why I only hit it once a year or so for a couple of days!  Best weekend of the year, every year! :)  Problem is the rest of the year am hammering the ganja instead!  :D  Wooft is my brain fecked!

You mean you roll a couple nights in a row? That alone is probably doing more damage to your future highs than spacing it out over months would be.

I totally disagree ;)
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: kingpin on February 06, 2012, 08:22 am
I rarely take drugs, maybe twice a year if that!! I got this feeling from pills alone (but who knows what was in them) !!

MDMA crystal as awesome as it is didnt do this for me, was it my mood or something?

What could they put in pills that might give this feeling? or is mdma crystal different to mdma in pills? I would think mdma is mdma though!!!

The best feeling ever when you look at your mates and you say "fuck your a mad cunt man" etc best thing ever, its like everything is lined up in life and everything is perfect.

My first pill was opposite and not my best time, it was more justchilled out and sense of touch was enhightened, was still freaking awesome though!!! I was so scared my first time LOL
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: novocaine on February 06, 2012, 10:14 am
I have a theory and I liken to kids believing in santa...its simple but bear with me.
What you are chasing you will never get again. It has fuck all to do with tolerance ime.

I too was scared my first time lol. MDMA was the first drug I took. I was anti drugs at the time but had a weak moment because of the situation and the friends I was with.

That night was WOW infinity...changed my world view and all that, and for the next 12month binge it never changed. The clubs we went to where EVERYONE was off chops and nobody gave a fuck.... the tight crew I was with didnt really change.. we saw the same munted 'mad cunts' out every weekend.... it was awesome.
That was my santa year.
Then I grew up and things changed, my situation changed, job, girlfriend, the off chop clubs closed down and made way for the new generation of conservative cocktail drinking 'younger' (much younger) nite clubbers. My wonderful off cop friends dont believe in santa either and have moved on having kids and buying houses etc. We still get together and it is great on a whole different level.
I like Xmas but I dont believe in santa. The anticipation and build up of santa coming, is gone now...but I still enjoy Xmas.

IMO the drug never changes....but you do. You gotta change with it and realise that them awesome santa years are over and you should start looking at evolving with the drug or giving it up.

I still have nights where... just maybe santa might be real ;)
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: EnterTheMatrix on February 06, 2012, 11:06 am
I have a theory and I liken to kids believing in santa...its simple but bear with me.
What you are chasing you will never get again. It has fuck all to do with tolerance ime.

I too was scared my first time lol. MDMA was the first drug I took. I was anti drugs at the time but had a weak moment because of the situation and the friends I was with.

That night was WOW infinity...changed my world view and all that, and for the next 12month binge it never changed. The clubs we went to where EVERYONE was off chops and nobody gave a fuck.... the tight crew I was with didnt really change.. we saw the same munted 'mad cunts' out every weekend.... it was awesome.
That was my santa year.
Then I grew up and things changed, my situation changed, job, girlfriend, the off chop clubs closed down and made way for the new generation of conservative cocktail drinking 'younger' (much younger) nite clubbers. My wonderful off cop friends dont believe in santa either and have moved on having kids and buying houses etc. We still get together and it is great on a whole different level.
I like Xmas but I dont believe in santa. The anticipation and build up of santa coming, is gone now...but I still enjoy Xmas.

IMO the drug never changes....but you do. You gotta change with it and realise that them awesome santa years are over and you should start looking at evolving with the drug or giving it up.

I still have nights where... just maybe santa might be real ;)

Totally agree! MDMA use to be the perfect drug for me when I was younger and the comedowns didn't seem to be very bad either.

These days it's still pretty good, but never like the first few years of experimentation - I guess it's like when you first fall in love, it's never the same again...

Matrix
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: nobl on February 07, 2012, 04:13 am
Hi,

Back in the day maybe 4 years ago, I would get great pills that would your face plastered with a smile from ear to ear and you couldnt have better mates int he world, I miss that kind of high, Ive had mdma crystal since and its great but its still kind of mainly europhic and buzzy etc, I really miss the loved up feeling, what chemical would I be searching for?

Had you been smoking pot around this time? recall waking up feeling clear headed, like before you had ever smoked? Clean and energised?
Didn't sleep for long but woke up feeling better than most 10 hour sleeps? it was most likely mdma. I personally find the best sleeps are on light mdma.

A pill is a pill, a crystal is not. A pill is an unknown...you just swallow it, will it work, will it not, is it over powerful, will i die.  Lot's of unknowns to feed your mood.

Heres some tips of advice. I've noticed a lot of people inexperienced with pills/mdma, who drink a bunch of beers, then slam one, thinking it will have the same effect as a few lines of speed will after drinking. With speed, it'll bring you up out of the muck, sobering you up hell the right stuff whilst shitfaced will have you like you didn't even drink that night.

If you've had a bunch of beers prior to, a small dose of mdma will be next to impossible to actually feel at all for the night. The alcohol dulls the senses to the warmed up feeling. Unfortunately most people hit mdma whilst, most commonly after drinking, i think that's so pointless personally. 'oh it was crap didn't feel it.'  key word...feel. course you didn't feel it, you were shitfaced, probably wouldn't have felt a toke on a joint either. If you want to have a post alcohol drug, get drunk and hit some speed or a stimulant.

mdma i think is different, yeah a big dose will make you bang on whilst drunk, but it's a more special subtle drug. People don't use lower doses because they are mentally lazy and don't bother to consider interactions, they think it's all the same regardless. It's not, it's like a finerly prepared dinner. Yeah thresh holds will start to play a part, but most of it is mental laziness i think. - At a lower dose, the effects are there, but you have to 'search' for them.

I prefer as low dose as possible, so i have to actively search for the effect, at which point you begin to enjoy it. ie, Just slightly over the tipping point of feeling nothing. The trick though is being patient, i do think people try this, but after an hour think nothings happening and have more. I don't even like the chew lip mullet face, i rather the point where your intro spective, dialated, energetic, but most importantly clear headed. I think most people don't even know about that part of it, they skip ahead to mullet face without realising. I honestly think mullet face chew lip is an od of sorts, that is not the effect of mdma as i know it.

I also think people try and compare mdma with lsd. With lsd, it seems that your either under the thresh hold and basically feel almost nothing, or over, at which point your space tripping goats.

Mdma aint that guy.  Next time, Eat about an hour prior, have a small amount, with no booze at all, and do something simple like going for a slow easy bike ride. Avoid drinking soda drinks and caffeine too. Guarantee after an hour, you will notice your friend is there with you. Also do it around sunset, i don't believe in dropping in day time, about half an hour before sunset is ideal. it will align with your bodies natural energy times assuming you normally goto sleep at about 11pm.

The light messes with the pupil dialation causing a headache if exposed to lots of bright light, which is why sitting in front a pc all night isn't best either. Your better off out, i prefer in a landscape environment like looking out over water on a moonlight night etc.
Many a day tripper at festivals would get late afternoon headaches me thinks, caused not just by dehydration but unsuitable environment and sun restricting the forced pupil dialation. Your pupils are muscles too, it doesn't feel good when you force your finger backwards too far either.

Oh to the peeps saying a 60mg dose would do nothing. Have you ever tried hittin 60mg an hour before bed on a week night when you havent drunk or smoked anything? As opposted to later on your saturday night deep into your drinking session?
 It might not keep you awake all night, but that doesn't mean it won't be good.
Being naive, that was essentially my first experience, half a pill, about an hour before bed. I went to bed about 2 hours later, it was the greatest 2 hours of my life.
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: kingpin on February 07, 2012, 08:01 am
ent drunk or smoked anything? As opposted to later on your saturday night deep into your drinking session?
 It might not keep you awake all night, but that doesn't mean it won't be good.
Being naive, that was essentially my first experience, half a pill, about an hour before bed. I went to bed about 2 hours later, it was the greatest 2 hours of my life.

Thanks for the write up, appreaciate it! EVERYONE!

I think you might be right about environment etc. The one thing missing these days as opposed to the olden days was we had all our mates (no one was whipped by gfs) there, we were all keen to party, we were all in the mood there was no animosity. It was just meant to be I guess. This is probably what is happening, nowadays or my last time was NYE with one mate at home in my small apartment, did 700mg that night he got tired early like 4am i wanted to keep going he wanted to sleep. No ideal!!!

I have a theory and I liken to kids believing in santa...its simple but bear with me.
What you are chasing you will never get again. It has fuck all to do with tolerance ime.

I too was scared my first time lol. MDMA was the first drug I took. I was anti drugs at the time but had a weak moment because of the situation and the friends I was with.

That night was WOW infinity...changed my world view and all that, and for the next 12month binge it never changed. The clubs we went to where EVERYONE was off chops and nobody gave a fuck.... the tight crew I was with didnt really change.. we saw the same munted 'mad cunts' out every weekend.... it was awesome.
IMO the drug never changes....but you do. You gotta change with it and realise that them awesome santa years are over and you should start looking at evolving with the drug or giving it up.

I still have nights where... just maybe santa might be real ;)

See my best time was not my first or second, it was probably my 3rd or fourth. Smile from ear to ear, everyone I met was in my words "the maddest cunt alive" , deep and meaningfuls etc.

I never ever been drunk and taken MDMA. In fact Ive never even had a beer and then taken mdma. I just dont drink at all. I have mixed speed and mdma, speed seemed to take over the mdma but was awesome night. Na dont really smoke pot  (got boring for me, I dont like to feel lazy, which is what it does for me, well ended up doing after awhile) and hadn't around that time, I used to smoke rarely maybe once every 3 months.

I think sadly all you guys are right, the stars just arent aligned anymore. Sad really. But now im kind of a psychonaught so to speak and I would personally rather take LSD alone and experience it myself without worrying about others etc. MDMA would not be good alone though lol.

My brain seems to race at a million miles a hour, which is why benzos seem to be so likable for me.

Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: novocaine on February 07, 2012, 10:41 pm
I haven't had too many chances to take it during the day, but the few times I have had good mdma at sunrise, it's been incredible.

And novo you pretty much perfectly summed up my first experience with pills, spot on.


++10 on the sunrise drop;)
and yeah I could write a memoir on 'the year I was munted'

It was one of the best years of my life and forever burned into memory. Not just because of all the fun, the endless dancing and the wonderful friendships I made along the way but the attitude adjustment that still is ingrained now in my psyche.
I was a jealous(relationship breaking jealousy) mixed up homophobe before D(rop) Day.
You know that redneck that stands on the side of the dancefloor...one foot on the dancefloor to show some kind of involvement, rum n coke in hand...watching his girlfriend closely so she doesnt get too close to any boys....telling 'poofters' to fuck off back to their poofter clubs.... then emotionally abuse the GF on the way home because she danced with some other guy..zzzzz that was me and I am ashamed to admit.

Then the GF left to go OS for a year for work (me) and thus rolled on my santa year....best god damn year ever(i mentioned that already?)
The veil was thus lifted and I saw life for the very first time. The first drop all my anger had left me. I finally learnt what healthy non jealous relationships were like... and homosexuals.... love em to bits(in a non gay way) Empathy has stayed with me and has continued on strong and so has my GF who came back and saw a very different person...enough to want to hang around for another 8 years so far. The thing is so do some of the other munted GF's I met my santa year... Oh well I cant blame them:)
Title: Re: AUSSIE - I want/need that loved up feeling
Post by: kingpin on February 08, 2012, 08:55 am
I know what you mean it can actually change you. And I of course have things I want to change. One of them always thinking ahead, I do take risks but I can't help but think ahead and it can be really fuked sometimes.

LSD and mdma have been the big changers in my life, only done acid twice but it can really help you in a positive way. Its something I will do till I die, not heaps often because its just not needed but often enough.

Xanax are a similar changer but only while on them, and can be very addictive ive found. Perfect sleep and waking up and feeling happier then ever is hard to throw away.