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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: rosannebar on January 15, 2013, 07:14 am
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I was just thinking. If you found out or felt that you only had a short time left on this earth we share. Would you want to try and drug that you had been scared to before? Would you want to be sober? I have always had anxiety issues, fear of death, panic attacks, hypocondriac, that kinda thing. So I have always been more into downers, I avoid anything like speed, or acid because of the fear of it killing me or being out of control. But, honestly, i kind of think that if I were at my last week or day, I would want to push the limits. What about you?
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IF i were surely going to die I would try either smoking crack or I.v heroin because fuck it , il be dead soon anyway!
Or maybe datura but that would likely be unpleasant...
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If I wasn't such a chicken, I would love to expand my mind. It's to bad my anxiety can hijack things. I don't want to see things melt around me, I want to *feel* something bigger then me. Know what I mean? Like, feel the presence of a creator. Heck maybe that isn't even what acid or lsd does. But I always thought it came close.
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Me? Regardless of if I was going to die or not. I would stick with marijuana and spend as much time as I could with my family. Marijuana calms my mind, and over all, makes me a more compassionate person.
That is how I want to be remembered if I were to kick the bucket. A compassionate family guy.
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if i knew i was about to die, i would want to experience more of reality, not less of it.
hence i would avoid mind-dulling drugs that put you into a stupor..... i would avoid drugs that give you a euphoria without content. i would want a meaningful experience, not just a euphoric experience
so i would probably take LSD
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I've never tried mescaline or peyote, so I would really love to try them if I was on my death bed. Also, some high doses of LSD. And of course DMT. Basically anything psychedelic! :)
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Would probably say heroin. Never wanna try that shit. Read a book about a guys life on it. FUCKED his life up. like FUCKED up. This dude could of literally be sippin on golden cups and this motherfucker (straight guy) was gettin his dick sucked by another dude for money to get his next fix.
I heard the high is like NOTHING else though. He even said it in the book. That would be the reason I'd try it. Plus I think I'd feel nice right before you die. Kill any pain and just make you feel no other way.
Would probably want to try some research chemicals too ::)
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I've had some drug experiences I've regretted.
I've had some Alcohol experiences I've regretted.
I honestly don't think I have ever regretted having sex with a girl I truly thought was beautiful though so I would probably want to go out that way.
All right, maybe we might do a little MDMA before we start...
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I can get high off of about 130mg of the MDMA I sell - so that means I would eat one of the biggest crystals I have, which would be around 13 grams.
I have always wondered what a dose that high would feel like - I am aware that I would probably die at the peak, though.
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Interesting topic. Knowing me, I would probably go on a bender and take everything I could get my hands on. I mean, if I'm gonna dies soon then there's no reason to hold back. But I'd end with a thumbprint dose of LSD because A. Taking a serious (1mg+) dose of LSD is on my bucket list and B. LSD has been shown to help people with end-of-life anxiety enormously.
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Heroin.
If for some reason my life would to end, why not go for the 1 single drug I have avoided all my life.
Shoot it with Coke (Never IV'd before and not going to) and get the most infamous and legendary drug induced high ever.
Going to die tomorrow ?
Speedball my way into heaven !
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Intravenous a huge amount of DMT fumerate while already on a 600mic acid tab...
oooh I'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it, since the only reason I don't try it already is I value my mind and there's no telling if you would come back the full quid from a dose that high :D
Haha, that's pretty much what I was thinking. Huge amounts of K or MXE and then dying while in the hole must be magical too.
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Intravenous a huge amount of DMT fumerate while already on a 600mic acid tab...
oooh I'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it, since the only reason I don't try it already is I value my mind and there's no telling if you would come back the full quid from a dose that high :D
Haha, that's pretty much what I was thinking. Huge amounts of K or MXE and then dying while in the hole must be magical too.
What's being in the K-hole like?
Never tried Ketamine, but I'm getting very keen too.
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If I knew I was going to go I would have to drink a few vials of some nice needlepoint and see what happens.
I've always wanted to experiment with one of these hero doses you only hear myths about but never had the balls.
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Intravenous a huge amount of DMT fumerate while already on a 600mic acid tab...
oooh I'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it, since the only reason I don't try it already is I value my mind and there's no telling if you would come back the full quid from a dose that high :D
Haha, that's pretty much what I was thinking. Huge amounts of K or MXE and then dying while in the hole must be magical too.
What's being in the K-hole like?
Never tried Ketamine, but I'm getting very keen too.
I've never tried K, only MXE. The experience is pretty elusive so I can't really describe it...
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If it's a painful death, opiates definitely. Otherwise, shrooms, 6 grams. I began my drug life with shrooms (weed does not count), let's end it with shrooms.
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Yeah, if I knew I were going to die, I would shoot heroin one last time and just slip into a deep, peaceful sleep.
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I would hippy flip i think shrooms and mdma :) Would be a pleasant near the end experience
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lsd and dmt so i could get an idea of the intermediate state and learn to recognize the clear white light. :)
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Death is easier to pontificate about when it's not immediately in front of you. It surprises me that so many people say they want to do LSD to more clearly understand the experience. When you're actually forced to face the reality of your mortality, things like 'clear white light' and 'creator' can start to sound like euphemisms for something that's too awful for most people to talk about. Death is, after all, permanent.
Then again, according to record, Albert Hoffman asked his wife to give him LSD shortly before he died. Gotta respect that. :-) So obviously it can affect people differently.
As for me, it depends on what kind of death was coming. If it was going to be painful, terrifying or unpleasant in some other way, I'd take a heroin overdose instead-- to die on my own terms, quickly and painlessly.
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DMT. Have an ego melt and "breakthrough" before I leave here.
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Intravenous a huge amount of DMT fumerate while already on a 600mic acid tab...
oooh I'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it, since the only reason I don't try it already is I value my mind and there's no telling if you would come back the full quid from a dose that high :D
Definitely this! Just smoke a huge amount of DMT, and an hour and a half later take a bunch of blotters. Just shove them in like I'm eating saltines or something.
It sounds super amazing right now just thinking about it, but I agree with you, that I value my mind too much to do that just on an average day.
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Death is easier to pontificate about when it's not immediately in front of you. It surprises me that so many people say they want to do LSD to more clearly understand the experience. When you're actually forced to face the reality of your mortality, things like 'clear white light' and 'creator' can start to sound like euphemisms for something that's too awful for most people to talk about. Death is, after all, permanent.
i respectfully disagree. i believe impermanence is the nature of all things... even death!
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Probably low dose acid. Not enough to have me gone but enough to let me appreciate the world. Maybe mix in some mdma as well. If I'm going to die painfully though, gimme heroin.
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Without a doubt, I would want to be stuck in the meanest k-hole ever.
I feel like I am a spirit floating through the universe while on K. Just like I am in heaven. Would like to experience that one more time before passing.
There have been scientific analyses in the past I have read that showed K simulates many of the same mental phenomenon that occur during an NDE. I can definitely see why this could make people believe they are in heaven..
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I can get high off of about 130mg of the MDMA I sell - so that means I would eat one of the biggest crystals I have, which would be around 13 grams.
I have always wondered what a dose that high would feel like - I am aware that I would probably die at the peak, though.
sounds like the way to go maybe with some coke but i dont think that you wouldn't die at the peak with just mdma at least lab rats and monkeys didn't with the mdma even injected.
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do whatever drug i can get my hands on of course, definitely going to try herion, crack, and so on,,,