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Market => Rumor mill => Topic started by: michaelphelpslovesweed on November 02, 2012, 09:56 am
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Well I'm still tripping nuts, I wrote this right now. it probably makes 0 sense specially at the beginning when I was trying to remember. but the middle parts are more real, they make more real reality sense. no more sense but more real reality sense definitely. I'm 10 hours deep right now, and I still have really strong visuals. and I still don't feel my body. It's my first time doing pretty much anything that isn't weed or alcohol so it ripped me like lightning and I didn't expect it. but i'm glad it happened. Please enjoy these new knowledges I have to offer.
here's the link for HEADSHOP's vendor page: http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/index.php/silkroad/user/e22a5ec917
btw. GREAT communication. I had a little chat with the vendor when I ordered. I'm always down for that.
try to read through the parts that stop making sense. I excuse myself for those parts that don't.
thank you for what you gave me. i seriously think i should even pay you extra for this. It's my first and last time doing lsd (most likely, one can never be questioned) and I did 2 squares of 150mcg and like 20 minutes after that smoked two gbs of medical grandaddy purple. Thank you and there goes that trip report as good as I could try to put it into words.
Afriend was playing skyrim. Bfriend took 1 I took 2 we put it under our tongues. I started playing around with it in my mouth and immediatly feel some buzzing everywhere in my body. We had some trippy lights and signs like a miller light neon thing some christmassy lights and some bullshit. So Friend A keeps on playing some skyrim and we look at his playing of skyrim. I'm kinda helping him out with some stuff he wanted to look into so we're like exploring skyrim and I start to see mouths (as in lipsteethteethlips) in some textures. As this happenned I sat and talked to friend A about how awesome this was. I was finding out so much about me as my body disappeared from this world. and Friend A is my mind. I keep talking to him as if he were my mind. I keep exploring this new realities suddenly coming at me with knowledge. My body starts disappearing, I don't know if I already said that, my body is fading out of this reality but I'm just focused on telling friend A about this stuff im finding out. and how as I see my body disappear from my reality as I focus on all the thousands of realities everywhere. I'm also focusing on my speaking, I'm not a native english speaker but I was talking in english and I was having trouble doing it I don't feel as if I were really speaking to anybody else but him even though friend b was there. I want to focus in one of the swirls to see why sometimes my world swirls. I feel anger when I focus on them so I throw them to stay somewhere else. So he keeps exploring skyrim and i'm focusing on what's happenning. as I'm feeling my body disappearing I went into a place with no time and no space and complete nothingness and I explored realities from this point of view as I see mine disappear, and I'm telling friend A about the moment it was the moment before I let knowledge override my reality and it was coming and I was helping knowledge doing by taking the bad stuff in my world somewhere else while analyzing new worlds. So I zip up my jacked (it just got in brand new really puffy big winter jacket. put on my cap and put my hands in my pockets and focus on skyrim. I notice how this new reality is coming and I watch it focus in. I watch a reality more from above and focus on bringing out, little by little we blew those evils away as we continued to compress all the knowledge of this reality. I wanted to store as many realities as I could so I kept doing it with all of them. I'd stare at every reality and feel every reality.and compress each one of them and store them as for knowledge had to keep coming in. and I kept digging finding the ill reality fighting it and storing it. but nothing is real I'm not acting (but I really am? I don't know sometimes I talk to Friend A in english some times in spanish. But I'm actually looking through time. everything that's gonna happen is happenning and I see it watch it analyze it save it as knowledge keeps coming it. Battles get crazy as we get deeper and we wake up elsewhere? What is this new thing I'm feeling? I stare at a reality in the future? i try to recreate the past in the future because I am seeing myself tomorrow morning in a different reality attacking me. so i embrace it and there's a door with the light on where we're in but I can't see the big picture. im focusing on disappeearing that i am imagining or watching? am I talking? sometimes I talk sometimes I don't.. but friend A is always talking back telling me what to check and he tells me in spanish but he doesn't speak spanish. How am I getting something from him if he isn't saying it? Am I just transferring me his knowledge just like that? from the future? in this reality? so there's now 3 more people in my room but I don't really give a fuck, I never really give a fuck about anything just sometimes it's crazy but most of the time i don't give a fuck so i'm embracing this new reality which is in my future. I see the environment is the same one but the reality isn't. It's like ALL the realities are in bubbles. I control and analyze them just to enjoy them and learrn more about everything. I've gotten up some times and take off and put on my jacket.. I approach this place with no nothing as I run out of realities, all of them with evil ridden. so I get to the last layer and they're all in and they're all good. I'm in a place with no time feeling nothing while feeling everything. I lived a thousand lifetimes. so I stare at my friends and everything is so strange. and so much knowledge is coming I don't know what to feel. What is real, what isn't? did I just get up? where? when? I keep seeing mouths everywhere but they're more like vampire mouths. I don't like this reality. But I've lived every reality. And all the evil of all my realities is being lived. and i'm sitting down with it. and i took a sip of water and I don't know where it went. I see friend c and friend d got here that's cool we're smoking? alright that's good. I see mouths around the bong. smoking a J a little bit and starting to feel buzzed. but i'm not feeling the buzz with my mind I'm clearly not in my body but this is not even close. I don't know where my body is. I just looked at every reality. and it's like a huuuuuuuge staircase swirl where I could see the end. and in the end of every reality I saw discomforts and fucked them over. and now they came to fuck with me. I feel like I already entered this reality tomorrow morning. but my body really hasn't. I'm twitching and some times I try to explain what I'm learning, seeing or feeling and my friends are like wtf? but i don't give a fuck because that's who I am. but everything came up in this reality I was in. I was with some entity and we stared at every fucking possible way my trip could turn out like. I live them and rewind them as my will is. Time is nonexistent as I am to meet some New people with new realities with more knowledge. And I continue to do this and I'm very excited for all that I learn everytime. I realize by this moment that everything is being displaced everywhere as I started to fall away. I keep telling myself for i guess it is inevitable. this entity is looking for somewhere to send me. so I mind around staring at realities to see if they were mine. and as I started living them I would see as wrong things would develop and destroy my reality if I lived there. I feel like I'm being trashed by the entity. because I already have a reality in which to be in. which is mine. but i'm not there. We're playing fifa 13 and i see as they go and try to score and don't and I see all their imperfections and flaws. The entity tells me that I can't be wandering around that I have to go to some reality once I stored them. I'm supposed to go back to my reality. So I continue living and digging around random pasts and futures to see if I could find mine (I was viewing from the future) everything happening was being mirrored. and I saw it from some other eyes and my hands aren't playing fifa but somebody else's is. but they are actually my hands. and it's my reality. but my mind can't find it. I'm just playing fifa in spurs and focusing on reflexes. sometimes i pause and gaze into other realities for fun for 1 moment even though it's actually hours or days or months going on in each reality. In order for me to gaze into reality I have to gaze deep so sometimes I don't know what's real and what isn't. until I find that. I'm starting to run out of realities as I try to find mine. This is what's happening right now:
I'm trying to find a comfortable position that would fit any of those future realities as I analyze them. there are 9 of them. they are there. they are all my reality if I choose it but it's not that one I'm in. my body is in my reality but my mind could get into other realities. but something always happened and I figured out something was wrong in all of them. so I'm running out of options while staring at this entity, and nothingness. I live out the last few but I'm realizing they're real. but now I'm trying to remember what reality looks like so I'm staring and reality. but my mind is confused. i'm living in this living room playing some fifa with these people but I already lived that same scenario a bunch of times before I'm living it with my body.. but I'm staring into reality living them and there are many common realities I could fake for my own. So I start to wonder, what is real? I start to wonder where am I?, I scan and live out my last scenario and at the same time scored on the 90th minute barely even looking at the screen just like if my body was in autopilot. and the game is over, and i win, and I scan out the final reality, and it's not real, and the entity looks at me holding my reality but it looked dark. I said fuck that and started moving. but my body was moving awkwardly I could really feel it as far as I'm concerned it barely exists.and I say it. I say it another time even though i've said it thousands of times. I keep thanking Friend A for sticking up to all of my talking, I'm trying to stay in reality but I am no longer here. I see my body's trying to act cool and fake my trip but I can't and I see everyone standing out just staring at me and I talk to friend A because he is my mind, I think so i talk. it's so much easier to be mad than it is to be angry. and it is in fact all going to get better. until you stop faking yourself and realize you can't make yourself fit in another reality. what is happening? I try to fake myself as my natural cover is all the time. but the entity tells me I have to be 100% real to prove it's my reality. what happened before? what has happened? sometimes I think about all the things. I'm just waiting in this new world. not doing anything really. You see what happens is that.. i don't know.. this is how i'll explain it:
I see a reality from the future. and start going backwards. and if it is my reality it will just go down good. but if it isn't it's gonna find some problems while spiriling down.like a huge spiral puzzle.. spiriling down as I travel that reality backwards. but as I'm travelling from the future back I'm also travelling within. into the deep. and if the puzzle fits my reality will be ok. if it doesn't budge here it might budge there. While spiriling back there. back there. so I ask the entity, where are we spiriling down to? I would always see a bright light of some kind. it resembled the light of that door to my left though. The entity said all realities came from me waking up. I don't know if the door is there or if it isn't.. sometimes I see them talking to me. Talking, I do feel my talking isn't getting any better. but that helps me focus on the large picture. every time i focus into something i realize what is happenning. and it is inevitable and I guess it's just going to get better. but i go deeper and farther away from me. and my body is falling but every time i start to spiral through my body holds me to reality.. there's a part i'm swirling in to but It's not mine. but I don't give a fuck, and i go through. and my body is sleeping. and I am the task manager of my body, taking out tasks, everytime a task appears it's bright but it's soon taken down, and I continue, and it's not my reality, but I don't really know what is right now. and I slowly progress into nothingness. I realize I'm actually deattaching my body from reality. It's coming for me, and I keep saying it. but now I know it, I found out about all of this, but there's only out. What is real and what isnt? am I really talking to my friends. I see skyrim figures. and dialogues, but i'm not playing skyrim. Friend A is, but I'm watching the screen while watching some other skyrim things going in there. everybody was staring at me, there was nothing. I stood in pitch black space even though I had my eyes open where there was light. And this skyrim figure presence tells me I can deal with it or focus on this reality and not on mine. and there was no time. and I would travel my environment in a paused motion. nobody took a breath, nobody said a word. it asked me if I wanted to snap back. so this is when I realized i didn't know what was real and what wasn't, and I wanted to get back into my body's reality. and I had to go through ALL my problems before I reentered which when I did felt perfect. kevin helped me, kevin's done lsd, he knows knowledge, he understands when I'm talking. I have to thank kevin for helping me realize what is real and what isn't. Kevin is my totem, thanks to him I came back. Everything means so much more.
I guess you could sum it up as: I liked everything so much, it became the new me. but then I wanted to return and be the old me with my new knowings. In order to do this, I had to prove myself worthy of my position in this reality.
But there was a moment there. there was nothing, and it felt great. I had died and I felt great. being with this entity now, just great happiness. I was with the entity and it gave me a choice. and the clocked ticked, and they all thought I was going to be crazy forever, and I thought so, but I came back, and snapped back. But it was so real. All the doors, all the levels, all the tongues. I went through everything, and came back. And it was all so good. And I met me.
I felt so happy, and so excited, I guess it's just dull when you come back. but I remember what it felt like to want to live, to want to experience. I experienced.
I feel great, I would definitely recommend this acid, because if there's something it's designed to do, it's what I did. I'd like to say it's crazy, but it's so real, and so good. the fifa made me crazy.. when I scored that goal while not even knowing I was playing. It made everything more real. That feeling of achievement, goal to win in the 90th minute. I felt SO great. And my body was kept away, so I was further out. and I still came back.
If it were up to me I would love it if everybody in the world did acid all of a sudden. we would be so happy for a while. there would be so many questions answered. so many quests done.
I have to talk to my sitter (friend A) tomorrow because he was my mind, he heard me speak. I have to thank him for helping me, and hearing me speak like i'm tripping.
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bump because you should all buy from headshop :P
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Really enjoyed that trip report ;D ;D ;D
The £10's in the post! ;)
Also setting: if you're in a group of friends its better that most of them are tripping as well and on similar amounts. That way you can get on each other's wavelength a lot easier.
Sounds like you should have only done 1 tab for a 1st trip though. That way you become CONFIDENT about tripping. You start to recognize all the various signs and are able to drive yourself and always arrive in a nice spot. 8)
However sometimes that prevents us from going into a really deep heavy trip like this one. ;D
Useful things to read would be Spiritual books: Yoga, Buddhism, etc etc which describe all the "different selves" - that we aren't "one self" - that there are so many different psychological realities within each and everyone of us.
And "entities" - what can I say? Some of them are archetypes present in the depths of the subconscious (read a little Jung for more on that) - whilst others are REAL. :o