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Discussion => Silk Road discussion => Topic started by: jtemp102311 on March 21, 2012, 06:31 pm
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ORIGINALLY SENT TO ROCKER
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Hey Rocker, I have a short little story I'd like to share with you and the SilkRoad Community.
I received a cut of your "Golden Teachers" this morning- in record time I might add. After compiling more and more insecurities with a recent "Vitamin L" binge, I decided to try a more natural and compelling way of aiding with my depression. I usually get a bit nauseated with any form of Psilocybin, why I have yet to determine. So, upon opening the package I proceeded to pulverize the shrooms to a fine powder and carefully filled nine, five-hundred milligram capsules with the said powder. (Doing the math, I appreciate the extra gram and a half =)) The effects hit me within fifteen minutes and they have now just worn off. I had a trip that was quite unlike any other. This is where I begin my story.
Three years ago, I was on my way to XXXXXXXXX at a private XXXXXXX with one of my dear friends. XXXXXX was a very inexperienced driver, and whilst trying to pass a SUV XXXXXXXX and lost control of the vehicle. What took merely five or ten seconds felt like an enernity to me. I managed to get the wheel from XXXXXXXX grasp amongst ear-curdling screams and inadvertedly steered the car over the median. This put us six feet into the air at seventy or eighty mph straight into a double-semi.
When I came to, the entire car had been wrapped around my body. Luckly, I came out of it with a severed hand and my life. When I looked to my left I saw a half of a face. When I felt my lap and when I glanced there, there were large amounts of hair, bits of skull and grey matter.
I was in and out of the hospital for a day, and the following week my parents decided to get a divorce.
To make a long drawn-out sob story short, I left for college in a daze. I started drinking heavily, doing heroin, meth, coke.. This lasted for a few years until I overdosed and was sent to rehab in XXXXXXXX. I just recently got back and have discovered the world of psychedelics.
After a few attempts on my life, I have still been giving the thought some back-bone. Today was the day I decided I was going to end my life. I purchased the weapon and the ammunition through XXXXXXXXXXX, everything came through as planned. The only hiccup was receiving your package this morning.
To be completely honest Rocker, I owe you my life. The trip I had today helped me revisit events from my past and helped me really re-evaluate priorities and finally my life.
I sincerely owe you everything I have buddy. People like you are what make this world worth it.
Thank you Rocker, so much.. and thank you SilkRoad.
Dread Pirate Roberts,
you have done so much good in my life
I wonder how many others you have affected in the same way.
Thank you all
I wish you all the very best of luck
together maybe we can put a dent in this ridiculous war on the personal use of recreational drugs.
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It is my wish to stay anonymous but it is also my wish to have this message heard by the community. Someone with the eye for "redacted" information, please look over this so I do not incriminate myself unnecessarily. There is a LOT of good that is being done and has been done by the Road and the people on it.
People need to wake up and realize this.
Peace and love everybody
I owe you all my life
jtemp102311
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Wow. I'm not sure if anyone has the skill-set to come up with the right words for this very intense testament. First off, let me say I am VERY sorry for what you went through and am VERY happy you decided to continue to push through it instead of ending your own life. Secondly I think, while intense and sad, this story does bring to light how much these vendors help those of us on SR. Lastly, I checked over your original post and it all seems as discrete as you can get.
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very heart-touching indeed. good to see that you survived ... a couple of times. will try shrooms now too.
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Wow....great post jtemp. Glad you are still around. Jerry G said it best...."How grey life would be without PSYCHEDELICS"
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Don't do it bro, you got too much going for you no matter who you are it can always be worse.
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Thanks guys.. today turned out to be an absolutely b-e-a-utiful day!
All around =)
This community is sincerely a great group of people.
Good luck and best wishes everybody!
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There can never be enough "How drugs positively influenced my life and well being" stories/testaments.
Good for you, dude.
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I sincerely thank you for sharing story. I wish you the best friend. :D
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Thank you for sharing this story!
The war on drugs has failed miserably, causing more harm then it ever did any harm reduction.
Bullshitpharma is now on the hunt for cannabinoids, so we will see new meds popping up soon.
How fucked can this world be, first you put people behind bars for consuming a plant, then bullshitpharma makes it, makes them the good guys.
And that is only cannabis, thing is they ran out of new stuff and now it's biochem to the rescue!
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Don't do it bro, you got too much going for you no matter who you are it can always be worse.
And just as important, and maybe more so, is that it can always get better!
I have had some dark thoughts myself (although I was not involved in anything similar to the horrific event that happened to you) but I always think that if I kill myself, that's it, it's the only thing where in an instant you are not only destroying everything you have but you are destroying everything you could go on to become.
Good luck, don't go too crazy on the LSDs. You can have some bad trips even after a good trick.
Great to see it helping you, take care and look after yourself. It's a MASSIVE cliché but anything that doesn't kill you will make you stronger and if you get through all of this you will have a stronger character than people who had never problems in their entire lives.
Take care, really hopes things get better. And if things do somehow get worse, just remember that life is a ride with many ups and many downs. No matter how many downs you get there will always be more hope.
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great thread, gave me a little more hope for the future
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<<rolled over and instead of hitting alarm clock, popped another rocker cubenesis>>
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This is exactly why I love The Road! Community is where its at. Sending ya good energy through the aether. ;)
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Hang in there man. You have an opportunity to live life and a future where you can make the rules and experience the better parts of life. Try to get everything out of this bitch before you head out man, stay strong.
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Thank u for sharing that! Glad your doing better.
Your right about SR. It can be extremely helpful.
A lot of people I know have severe pain and can never get doctors to prescribe enough meds to actually help. So they supplement by purchasing street drugs. SR has probably made it much easier for these people to get the relief needed.
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Very interesting story my man. Glad to hear such a positive outcome for someone that been through what you went through. I'm also amazed psychedelics really helped ignite that paradigm-shift for you that so many of us need, or are searching for.
Gotta love the power these things can give man.
Thank you for sharing that bro.
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Thank you for sharing! I love hearing about these kinds of stories! I have also been battling depression for quite a while, I have gone through some traumatic events in my life too and psychedelics have definitely given a whole new positive spin to my life. Can't wait to try Rocker's stuff.
Keep the positivity alive!
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this post always makes me smile and wonder how many other people use SR for more than
recreational fun.
It would be interesting to have a thread dedicated to all the positive ways that this site has helped people.
In my case, I don't want to go into much detail but finding SR really did give me a part of my life back.
It gave me the ability to occasionally purchase things that free me from certain realities and
allow me to feel like the person I always knew I could be, even if only for a moment, a day, a week, whatever, I'll take it.
Sometimes a little bit or occasionally is better than never...because like the original poster shared, we could be suffering for a long time and not know that just ONE good day could turn it all around.
Thanks again for your story. I hope you're still doing good
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this post always makes me smile and wonder how many other people use SR for more than
recreational fun.
It would be interesting to have a thread dedicated to all the positive ways that this site has helped people.
In my case, I don't want to go into much detail but finding SR really did give me a part of my life back.
It gave me the ability to occasionally purchase things that free me from certain realities and
allow me to feel like the person I always knew I could be, even if only for a moment, a day, a week, whatever, I'll take it.
Sometimes a little bit or occasionally is better than never...because like the original poster shared, we could be suffering for a long time and not know that just ONE good day could turn it all around.
Thanks again for your story. I hope you're still doing good
Yup, a second, minute, hour, day, week.. who the fuck cares as long as you are yourself. It's too hard to be "yourself" in the world as it is today. It's way too fast paced.
I second that idea on the creation of a thread dedicated to good/ life-changing experiences caused by having access to the Road.
It would definitely help shine a little bit of "good" light on the Road for media/ newspaper assholes.
Thanks for your post and thank you everybody who has posted above.
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This place is not done changing/shaping the lives of tens of thousands of people worldwide.
Can't wait to see what it grows into.
Have a good one guys.
J
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this post always makes me smile and wonder how many other people use SR for more than
recreational fun.
It would be interesting to have a thread dedicated to all the positive ways that this site has helped people.
In my case, I don't want to go into much detail but finding SR really did give me a part of my life back.
It gave me the ability to occasionally purchase things that free me from certain realities and
allow me to feel like the person I always knew I could be, even if only for a moment, a day, a week, whatever, I'll take it.
Sometimes a little bit or occasionally is better than never...because like the original poster shared, we could be suffering for a long time and not know that just ONE good day could turn it all around.
Thanks again for your story. I hope you're still doing good
Hey Kandi, check this out.. I managed to get a Sticky!!
http://dkn255hz262ypmii.onion/index.php?topic=17413.0
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cool. good energy you gave there to us
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That's some serious heavy stuff.. thanks for the story man, best of luck with everything... I think it goes something like this... 10% of life is what happens to me, 90% is how I deal with it and react to it.
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I sincerely owe you everything I have buddy. People like you are what make this world worth it.
Thank you Rocker, so much.. and thank you SilkRoad.
Mate he sold you drugs in exchange for money - it's a service. Whilst there's a possibility he might be a person who helps "make this world worth it" - him selling u a few shrooms has nothing to do with it.
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wow... your story is so moving. such a great testament to the power of psychedelics. glad things are looking up for you. everything you are searching for is within yourself. once you stop searching, you will find what you're looking for.