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Title: Any True Addict's Here? (Ex Heroin Addict)
Post by: 4737Carlin on January 22, 2013, 08:44 am
Figured if we gotta post to get to go outside I might aswell post something worth posting,so as the thread say's are there any truly dependant addict's that can came to silk road because the garbage that's on the street's just isnt worth taking anymore,I ask because i'm an ex heroin addict I started using when I was around 15,there was no peer presure or any kind of emotional trauma I was trying to cover it's just what I was doing at the time,I didn't even realise I had a habit until I woke up 1 morning feeling a bit shitty and there was an old time addict round the corner from me she was on Diamorphine ampule's back then in 1995 so it show's how long she'de been dependant(I use the word dependant because I was dependant on it) and she said you've got a habit,i'm like what,I got a what,I got a habit what the fuck's a habit so she gave me about 30ml of methadone and that sorted me out a treat,so fast forward 2 years and a neighbor say's,"there's some money to be made in this game if you do it right",I said get in with it then he say's "I already am do you want in" he knew I was using but he was sound about it I wasn't exactly your typical heroin addict.
I was at work at 14 working building site's and roofing working for demolision contractors usual stuff where you can be paid cash in hand so I never had to really struggle,so anyway thing's are going good we're making money i've got my gear for free and I mean as much as I could use it didn't matter we were moving so much,(as Howard Marks once said)I did try to use as much as I could actually get without losing anything in profit,but there was just too fucking much of it,we supplied alot of street dealers and i'm talking in 1997/8 about 20k a week clear profit,but none of it was mine dont get me wrong I got paid but not that paid,I did get to keep any gold I took for layon's but I had to give it from my own gear,fast forward to 1999 my dad dies of cancer and I dont mean he died after a battle, he was diagnosed 2 months later he drowned in his own blood and coughed his lung's up onto his chest,and I was on my own with him,hows that for fucking trauma,so I started to self destruct like any self respecting drug addict I got hammered for about a week gave my business phone to the neighbor and went on bender(I use the word Phone loosely because this was 1999 and they were bricks).
So after a week or 10 day's I dunno I didn't even know where I lived at this point for god's sake,i'de been hammering Tamazipam before they got made into shit chalk tablets and they were still green duck egg's with a gooey centre we could inject,(Awsome stuff)not many about by then but you could still get them,I had the benzo's covered let's just say that valium liquid that was nice didn't taste to great,still doesnt but it does the job,the only reason I went home was because I had to go to the funeral,after all that I wasn't really all that interested in driving round and dropping off to dealer's all day listening to they're fucking whining about why they were short on cash and making me slap em(Make it a proper backhander they not come short again).
So that's where it all started and to cut a long story very short here's how it end's I moved away with my mum thing's went from bad to worse the gear got worse I ran out of money and work lost everything except my mum and that includes 3 sisters 3 nephew's and a neice that wernt allowed near the evil junkie but I still managed to get by without ever really doing anything to dubious I never went to prison fortunatly I went through so many Detox center's at the end sometime's ide forget where in the country I was I was on 40mg's of valium a day 15mg of Nitrazipam(mogadon) and 120mls of methadone I still get 30mg of valium and 15mg of Nitrazipam and 90ml's a day but I dont take any off it I took a year out and got myself clean off the chem's but I kept it to myself I dont think ive been tested for drug's in over 4 year's but i'll still take just enough to show up if I am because right now I need the script because it mean's i'm legally unfit for work so with that and the support of my drug worker and 2 of the best drug Dr's in the Uk for references I thought i'de use it to my advantage and become a drug worker because I went through them like needle's they didn't know how to deal with me because they're text book's told them people only used heroin to block out some kind of pain beit emotional or physical but ive got the 2 best worker's in my county now,(IMHO)they did try to push me to train as a worker when I got my 2 year's clean but I wasn't ready then but it's 8 year's on now and thing have started to get better because even though I was clean for year's I still had no family really,I got clean really fast when I did do it I just stopped because I had the script med's to do it but I didn't have anything in place to replace the gear and running round so I sat in the house getting fat.
What I really want to know is would you like it if your worker had given you the knowledge to find SR so you didn't need to use the street's,(Obviously there's people you could tell and those you couldn't)My drug worker's are more like a decent mate's now it's been so long and 1 of them aint as goody goody as he lead's people to beleive no drug's, but he's not someone to fuck about with,it's going to be atleast a year before i'm anything near qualified in the eye's of the law so SR may not be here but if you were in a position to help somebody that you knew had the smart's to keep they're mouth shut and showed the potential to be a good member of society again, would you give him the knowledge to find SR just to deal with harm reduction,because after all it's not alway's getting clean sometime's it's just about being stable,I know I wish SR was around when I was using it certainly would have saved me a lot of money.

If you managed to read to the end Thanks for taking the time I thought I should atleast say where I was coming from first it's been 8 year's heroin free and 1 year off the chem's except for the trace ammount's I need for sample's my family started talking to me again a woman i've known for 6 year's has agreed to move to the Uk from the US to get married(Yes we have met many time's before) and i've basically got reference's that read like a who's who of the british Drug service's the Dr's reference's alone are like 2 golden tickets from Willy Wonker and im being offered a good chance to offer the knowledge gained through several years of rehab's and detox's,while also understanding exactly where somebody with a dependancy is coming from.

Im interested to know if real addict's actually use SR because it's easier and better gear.(most of the time)

Back to my Bud anyway you lot have kept me long enough,I NEED WEED.   ;D
Peace
 8)
Title: Re: Any True Addict's Here? (Ex Heroin Addict)
Post by: luvdak on January 22, 2013, 09:04 am
Not heroin
Title: Re: Any True Addict's Here? (Ex Heroin Addict)
Post by: pspring188 on January 22, 2013, 09:31 am
addict is 1 word to describe it .

always stayed away from the needle
Title: Re: Any True Addict's Here? (Ex Heroin Addict)
Post by: Banjo Lips on April 05, 2013, 02:53 am
CRACK